fading colors

mr. physical therapy and ms. bff

2009-12-13T00:47:00.003+08:00

kevin congratz! i was not present to witness one of your embarassing moment! Ü

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thanks for informing me, eventhough you only got 1st runner up, still proud for you my friend!

saying that you just do it for fun and almost trashing it, i know you really want it. bleeh!
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i still don't get it why girls got chills when they see you

even if your just like this:

more over

when you are up to something...

we still got long road ahead of us in school, together with lalin and other classmates we will reach our tolls.

thanks for transfering, you really don't have any idea how grateful i am!

owe you a lot!

salute to both of you!

my two bestfriends!

hope we still stick together until the end,

and friendship that will not end like my pasts.

love letter

2009-12-11T01:32:00.004+08:00

cyrle,
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you're alone!
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when will you ever learn?
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when will you stop expecting?
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they will never to you
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and you to them!
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so you better stop daydreaming!
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they are only using you,
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stop being so gentle and kind,
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because they will never be like that to you.
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why can't you learn?
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how many times of falling and crashing into a mud of pit
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before you learn that there will always be
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those people that would love to pull you down?
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stop enjoying so there would never be heartbreaks and pains.
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they are laughing behind your back.
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i think it's better that you'd be the old one
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plain,
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safe
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mean,
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strong,
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carefree
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and
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you are selfish,
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think only of yourself.
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can you give me a promise?
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promise me,
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that
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you will never let your guard down!
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love,
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yasmeen

criminal

2009-12-11T01:11:00.002+08:00

i killed him so many times in my mind
i hated him so much that makes me want to punch his face
i cried coz he tried to get my only confidant
i accept defeat coz im no match to him
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i don't know who to trust anymore
i don't know who to listen to
i don't know what to do
i don't know how to be on my own
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i'll rather go back in my old self
than let them hurt me openly
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i'll rather be the same old criminal,
killing people i don't like
flooding my mind with their blood
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satisfying my hunger for revenge
a mean smile that strucks my heart to laugh
the only way to feel my happiness
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kill him and them

blog almost dead

2009-12-11T01:07:00.000+08:00

transparent

2009-10-02T04:48:00.002+08:00

i smile because i can't cry,
in my world it is forbidden.
the heaven of my pain,
are the rain of my happiness.
my image is nothing but shattered glass
an existence,
a nuisance to all.
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no matter how loud i scream
no body would dare to listen.

tropical storm ondoy

2009-10-01T19:35:00.002+08:00

it's been five days after the tropical storm ondoy hit central luzon and some part of southern luzon, and the aftermath is still visible.

batangas was not really affected, it only received rainfalls all day, no blackouts, no flood. thank God!

but, my school in laguna, was heavyly affected. laguna was one of the mostly affected of ondoy. the perpetual binan received a heavy blow. my classmates said that the gym submerged in the flood, our deans office was flood till waist line.

my dorm, thank goodness, the water didn't reach our rooms.

classes cancelled till saturday.

there were a lot of people lost their homes, belongings and even love ones.

until now, donations are badly needed.

bayanihan is alive.

but there is new depression, classified as of now as "super typhoon pepeng".

the worst part,

it hasnt yet reached it's landfall, in luzon again...

facebook quizzes

2009-09-27T01:30:00.002+08:00

here are some of my facebook quizzes results...
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i found them really funny, cute and quite interesting...ÜÜÜ
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what my birthmonth means:

April

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret.Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly an...d solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

what flower represents me:

Hydrangea

You are your happiest when amongst a lot of people. You don't stand out in the crowd, your whole group of friends do. Your mood changes easily depending on your environment.... If you are at work/school you are very studious, however if you are at a club, you know how to get your groove on!

what is my element?:

Fire

Nature had given you a passion which is difficult to master. Not everyone reaches this mastery early on in life. In fact, chances are you are still trying t...o figure out how to control it. At times you feel as if your desires are consuming you, while other times you feel that your passion is so lacking it is bordering on apathy. These extremes are not healthy, and you must learn to live in a world in which both of these can coexist in a single moment. Life teaches us that we are to hone our talents into one outlet and command that aspect of our life fully. The trouble with you is that you have so many passions in so many areas that it becomes difficult to chose the one that suits you best. I challenge you to become a jack of all trades, and a master of none - for only then will your passions be satiated.

what is the perfect job for me?:

Doctor

You love to help people and wish to make sure no one is in any pain. You really like science and you are an academic. You are fun but are also very straight to the point...which isnt a bad thing!

learn to fly

2009-09-25T21:36:00.005+08:00

Learn to fly by Foo Fighters:

my new theme song -_-

Run and tell all of the angels

This could take all night

Think I need a devil to help me get things right

Hook me up a new revolution

Cause this one is a lie
We sat around laughing and watched the last one die

I'm looking to the sky to save me

Looking for a sign of life

Looking for something to help me burn out bright

I'm looking for a complication

Looking cause I'm tired of lying

Make my way back home when I learn to fly

I think I'm done nursing the patience

I can wait one night

I'd give it all away if you give me one last try

We'll live happily ever trapped if you just save my life

Run and tell the angels that everything is alright

I'm looking to the sky to save me

Looking for a sign of life

Looking for something to help me burn out bright

I'm looking for a complication

Looking cause I'm tired of trying

Make my way back home when I learn to fly

Make my way back home when I learn to

Fly along with me,

I can't quite make it alone

Try and make this life my own

Fly along with me,

I can't quite make it alone
Try and make this life my own

I'm looking to the sky to save me

Looking for a sign of life

Looking for something to help me burn out bright

I'm looking for a complication

Looking cause I'm tired of trying

Make my way back home when I learn to

I'm looking to the sky to save me

Looking for a sign of life

Looking for something to help me burn out bright

I'm looking for a complication

Looking cause I'm tired of trying

Make my way back home when I learn to fly

Make my way back home when I learn to, learn to,

learn to...

pharma mayhem; pisiform(ity??)

2009-08-26T00:34:00.004+08:00

yesterday, we had symposium for our FCL 5 subject. due to that, our regular classes were cancelled. one of it was pharmacology class with dr. lopez. the morning session of the symposium were cancelled. all of us decided to ditch the pharmacology for our remaining time since most of us still had a lot to do for spare time.

dr. lopez learned that we ditched him by the mistake of someone from our own class. so basically, he got mad. he went lecturing us about how we were wasting our time. only 12 students including were able to attend since we were just in a floor lower to thera lab.

symposium for afternoon session came on.

went home, sleep, eat a thousand times.

next day, Tee - jay, allowed us to read the letter sent to her by dr. lopez concerning the whole class. in the letter, he stated he's not mad about our actions, how disgusting our curriculum is, who's at fault and who's not, special mentions of special classmates, those who attended his lecture yesterday earns additional five big points in quizzes and automatic 5 pt. deduction to those who weren't able to attend.

basically, the letter were the topic during our free time. and classmates instead of feeling worried about it started making jokes out of it.

kuya irish. kuya gab. us

eto ang quiz natin

fill in the blanks

i am not mad blank?

why should i?

*laughs*

jed. jans (these two were the special mentions)

give me blank and blank

huh?

very good and believable reason!

during our gross ana., a former student came to visit us, he was now a successful p.t in the u.s, and he gave us uhmm, motivation or inspiration??? about study hard and pursue p.t coz it's worth it.

mark notices my hand, it has a dark spot on side of wrist. he was shocked when he saw it, coz he knows that i'm not addicted in online games yet i have darker spots than them who uses a lot of p.c. he said it was due to pressure inserted on the pisiform, one of the wrist bones, while we are using mouse or keyboard alone. it was also just last week when my mom noticed it, and since i don't know the reason i just said it was nothing. now, in my realization, my right hand has now darker spot and bigger pisiform compared to my left hand which is at this state very normal.

during vacation and free times i am in front of computer for longer hours. maybe not playing, but reading mangas and do a lot of stuff.

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so there i got it.

and by the way,

have

learn

this

sooner

the

better

wheelchair balance

brachial plexus and yougart sticks

2009-08-23T13:23:00.003+08:00

presenting, sir john's brachial plexus:

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totallly different from the brachial plexus i first learned from maám shean

different in a way that it is in more or less 3d style.

the first one is "sticks"

and sir john would not want sticks from us.

it have to be like his...

and i haven't started practicing this one out...

this weekend, i found new treat, so addicting!

these are yougart candy sticks!

while i was watching t.v, my sister gave me one of these,
she said it is called yougart sticks
and i like it
to the piont that i told her to buy me my own!
it is also very cheap, 2 pcs. for 1 peso -.-

i also learned that nobuta wo produce

is being shown in QTV,

that there is no way in hell

that i will be able to watch it!

it is my most fav jdrama T.T

socially challenge

2009-08-21T21:28:00.003+08:00

i'm so scared to be left out

but i'm also scared blending in

today is my cousin Rachel's birthday, and right now, at this very moment, they are having a party. and here i am alone and blogging proudly about it. dimwit! i'm not a party pooper. i'm really am socially challenged.

so many times that i ditched someones party not because i hate it nor i am busy with another thing or two but i just don't really like it. like if there's gathering, im hiding in my shell. i just don't feel it. my mind says go but my heart says no!

it's like seeing a lot of people makes my feet rooted in the grounds. but i can make it if it is for academic purposes. but parties? i don't think so. i always feels like crying if I'm about or have to go to. i hate it, i really hate it.

even in my own party, i like it simple. yes, it has been simple enough. there was not so many people, and only closest family were present. yet, on its very time, i was hiding in the bathroom. i didn't came out until i was so sure there's no more visitors left. i didn't even get out of the house nor entertain most of them nor thanked them for coming.

i think i started isolating my self from them is when:

relatives started think low of me, teasing me when its like they don't have dirt on their ugly faces
ate rhea spoke highly of herself and degrades me face to face, she might not intended it, nor she remembered it, but i never forget a single scene of it. im in high school and she was a lot older and smarter than me. note: smart people don't do that.
stupid dimwitted sister takes the scene

it is not just low self-esteem of mine. because at school, i do best. have enough confidence in me to face the class and my professors and to stand grounded on my points.

revelations: i have asperger's syndrome, not all of my relatives have a knowledge about it. it was just a months ago when i learned about it, and hell only knows since when i'm being like this.

i don't hate the syndrome itself, i understand it
i don't hate my relatives not knowing about this, but i hate them for badmouthing me (think i don't know eh?? i heard you all) (if you smart enough you will not do it, dimwits)
im happy staying like this but im not emo

series of unfortunate events

2009-08-16T16:24:00.003+08:00

this week is a one hell of a ride!

hell, because it really is.

it's not because it was a busy week

but because it was very, very, very unlucky week!

computer never come to life
been crazy over pathology
colds hurting me a little
two steps behind in my neuro ana class
lunatic quizzes everywhere
loads of unnecessary homework
bills continously coming in
money coming out
run out of tea
i lost 500 pesos!
colds become flu
absent 3 days in a row
in the pit of dying right now

couldn't get any better?

everydays the same,

every history make,

will be the future of the next

broken and defeated

2009-08-16T16:06:00.002+08:00

innocent eyes of mine

cried a thousand tears

in the midst of dawn

life's feel so unfair

for a girl who never crosses boundries

her never settled platform

has been again

shaken out of nowhere

my strongholds,

my path,

and my future

ruptured in a blizz of events

lost.

once again,

unprotected.

blamed,

for the things she never done.

how could you ecpect me to be strong?

going back home

2009-08-01T22:32:00.002+08:00

the life we are,

are just borrowed.

moreover a gift

much priceless from other gems.

everyone of us should cater it to the fullest.

once He decided to get it back,

we can just oblige,

regardless of our errands

we cannot hold back.

it is not a farewell,

but a welcoming home.

our existence are a mere reflection of His love

we never own ourselves,

borrowed but a gift,

none of us should object

He never wanted us wronged

but He wants us to feel the pain to grow out of love

so that when it's our time to go

we can always be at home

home in His place,

in His love

gone too soon

2009-08-01T22:09:00.003+08:00

Like A Comet

Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky

Gone Too Soon

Like A Rainbow

Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye

Gone Too Soon

Shiny And Sparkly

And Splendidly Bright

Here One Day

Gone One Night

Like The Loss Of Sunlight

On A Cloudy Afternoon

Gone Too Soon

Like A Castle

Built Upon A Sandy Beach

Gone Too Soon

Like A Perfect Flower

That Is Just Beyond Your Reach

Gone Too Soon

Born To Amuse,

To Inspire,

To Delight

Here One Day

Gone One Night

Like A Sunset

Dying With The Rising Of The Moon

Gone Too Soon

yesterday, july 30, 2009, my tita ester passed away around 4:30 in the afternoon. i went home yesterday that's when i learned about it. the whole family were getting ready to go to baisa. but not all were allowed to go. kids will stay home. thus, i was left out because my father said so, and because of my younger sister. i think i'm the only teen whose been left at home. my cousins around my age went with the adults. those who left were not sure when to comeback, my parents packed clothes. baisa was 3 hours drive from home, includes traffic and ofcourse the driver should be my tito boyong or else it is a 5 hours drive.

this morning, parents were already back home. they say their was no place to stay and its raining. some of the perks left to stay in baisa.

on the news this morning was former president cory aquino died this dawn. so basically, the whole t.v networks were full of this news, flashbacks of her life and leadership.

RANTING SPOT

2009-07-26T14:21:00.002+08:00

*i'm not perfect, i have my ups and downs of being human.
*so far, this might be the worst...
out of the ordinary, i commonly see this on programs.
now i'm one of the victim.
victim of shameless behavior and mischiefs.
i thought that i'm strong enough on my own...
but i was wrong.. .
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my roommate, for the first time in my life, because of her i experience

shit

disgrace

worriness

trembles

and

nothingness

i'm not that dumb! but i never thought that i will come to that point. that was the first time that i'm calling my mother for help in the middle of the night. the first time that i cant move my body. the first time that i can't think on what to do. the first time i feel awkward to something i know i have the edge. the first time that i knew sombodies were doing mischief in the same room where i am, under my bed! yes! she brought a guy and have sEx! if it's that what you want to get out of my mouth. i woke up in the middle of the night by my bed shaking, then a thought struck me! i heard her before that her boyfriend has nowhere to sleep, so think she brought her home. silently, i observed, making sure nobody will see me, then i'm sure that under me, there was not only one person but two! hello!!!! if you are smart enough or decent enough you will not do that in a place that you are not private. i want to cry out loud but no sound came out of my mouth. nor i can't even move. next day, everyone except me, where suprised about the guy in our room, and ate maan act like there was nothing strange happen, nothing strange about a guy sleeping in all girl's room! the worst was, it was not just the only time, it was the fisrt time. because there is second, third, and now a whole week with new bf. they are so stupid enough to not realising that they are pestering the others! they are noisy, they crowd the room, they make the us awkward... ok.. they are 2o plus, 3 of us 6 were 20 plus and matured or "liberated enough to think it that way." but the other 3 including me, were only 17 to 18 and 19! we were not opened to that thinking. the three of us were comforted in our own home. cared and respected by our families. school have a subject about sex and also morality! MORALITY! one of the things that my 2 foundation schools hammered in my mind! we are innocent but smart! we know what to think! it was hard on me! i depressed! beside aura, i only have kevin in a new place. eventhough it's not right, but i have to burst it out, i told him everything, i message my friends eventhough i know they can do nothing in my situation, i informed my mom eventhough i know this time nobody can comfort me. this is just the most extravagant rant i experienced!
others were nothing compared to this.
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uniform delayed by a month,
i can't catch up with my lessons,
alienation in some of my class,
stupid security officers,
my depression is creeping out,
my syndrome being prominent again
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how am i supposed to have a good social relationship when my syndrome is overwhelming me because of some stupid environmental stimuli???

the real deal

2009-07-25T23:43:00.002+08:00

I remembered black skies, the lightning all around me

I remembered each flash as time began to blur

Like a startling sign that fate had finally found me

And your voice was all I heard that I get what I deserve

-new divide, linkin park

^.^

"it was like reading a huge strange map which has no direction"

- my mind in circles wondering where to start.

.....that was my mind during the first month of the new school year. reminder! i am a transferree, it's really hard for me to start in nowhere. But slowly but surely, i'm now riding the wave. it was not that hard, because Kevin's with me, so i knew someone already.

....fast forward to my recent weeks! because first weeks where quite full of rants! heheh >.<

school's great, and finally i'm with "real classmates"! 0.0

they are fun and hard working o.0 though, kevin and I felt outcast when they are studying, because we're not that studious. xD

this week, i've tasted a real hell. '

Monday (07-20-09)

i went back to biñan so early monday morning. for what i know was, we will be having quiz in patho, prelim exam in fcl5 and extra meeting for biochem. i haven't read the lecture in patho so it was a big luck for me to have 4 over ten quiz >.< ... after patho, we proceed to fcl5 and i just got a hunch that it will not be an exam day. stupid proff, she did'nt accept our projects which was due last saturday! i mean it's late, so what, the number of students who passed it on time was like 4 to 5. i don't know where to find her office!!! i'm so proud of my chosen leader, sen. chiz escudero *roll'seye*. heheh ... after fcl5, classmates went to ana laboratory to study brains for the neuro ana exam while kevin and i went to biochem class. i felt so sleepy that i was asleep the whole session. after class i went back to my boarding house. i slept! ahahaha! victory! noon came, so as kevin with loiue, they invited me to join their "group study". actually i've been invited by mark earlier that day. i was hesitant at first, they were all boys! kevin was so pushy that i agree to follow. the place: mark and ramon's dormitory. here it goes, "it was my first gruop study!" so as kevin's. so i went it was around 5-6 pm.

the group study:

classmates were: kuya irish, mark, ramon, louie, kevin, and loreto (he came late)

the session start ofcourse with chitchats, don't forget, i'm with them boys! duh! boys do know how to gossip! allen and kevin taught me how! after some chit chats and munchchins, the study came next. kua irish facilitated the group study. we all decided to hit the brodmann's areas and it's lessions. and the fun starts. we went to this lession and another. stop. chitchat. lesiions. stop. chitchat. and in during the study, when all of us were confused by a single word, kuya irish were using a lifeline; CALL A FREIND. he called aileen and karen for the classification. for the entire time, it was only brodmann's lession! we just finished brodmann's around ten and i decided to head back first. kevin also decided to go home.

back at dorm, i thought i was alone because aura was at her sister's place, ate karen already went to his bf's house, ate vanessa was not at home, ate maan gone, then i saw kat's with me already sleeping in her bunk. i decided to sleep first. then i woke up, read and eat, still sleepy and i'm not quite sure if i absorbed the lessons i'm reading. ate vanessa came. we ate oatmeal. then she slept. a little later, ate maan came. ok she came and went to sleep. so i read again. then the disaster came. ate maan woke up saying PJ will come and sleep over! what! Girl's boarding house!!! then a bastard will come and sleep! so as i can't argue, it's not his first time to sleep there, i fixed my things and went back to my hobby of sleeping. i don't feel to study when there is something so bothering. i did'nt sleep in my bed, i slept on ate karen's bed.

Tuesday

woke up so frustrated. i go for my morning and bath rituals. then went to school. exam started. the exam, well, let's just say it "HALIMAW". all in all it was a monster's exam. much more than sir erwin's devil boardtype exam. during the exam, my classmates were asking for bonus. the proff was hesistant at first then she called a "5 minute brainstorming", meaning you can go around and copy or cheat your classmates answers legally! classmates in front went to back because smart classmates were stationed there. i did't went there, my leg hurts and i was still confused what's that brainstorming means. the time were running out. a single exam consumed a regular 3 hr. class. that was just for the fisrt part of the lecture exam, we still have the second part and the laboratory part. wooooooooh! *drools*

the second part came. i think all of my brain was drained already by the first part. it was really hard to understand and answer the second part eventhouh it was a multple choice type. i felt that it was not even tackled during the class or even the right answer is not on the choices. i came to the conclusion to use the ultimate weapon of "mini-mini-my-ni-mo" T.T

the best part was, the proff anounced that the laboratory exam was cancelled!

so went back home then sleep!

i woke up in the evening, ate karen was watching t.v, aura already gone, ate vanessa, ate maan and kat were still out. then went back to sleep again. -.-

around 12 midnight, ate maan came, her presence waking the hell out of me! she's with pJ. agian! the same scenario every night! i went down and slept in ate karen's bed. i planned to stay up and do laundry, but ate maan's so ^%(%$*&% and it was like my fault to stay up! like hell, i am also paying to use the place in my accord as long as someone was not disturb. oh yeah... turned on lights and my presence of being awake will disturb their ^$&$%^&. shit! stupid shit! good for her i don't have major exam to be so worried. or else i will burst into something i don't know.

Wednesday

i woke up, my schedule was 3 pm. major exams for 2 minor subjects. so i was just relax and don't feel worried about the upcoming exam. mood disturbed by the presence of someone. i have to bath and dressed in the c.r. it was really hard to dressed in c.r! hate it. hate it.

the day was so down with me having violations of not wearing a uniform! I STILL DON'T HAVE MY UNIFORM, i begged in the security office. i agreed to a violation signed and my i.d confiscated so that i can get in and take exam. after exam i checked for my uniform, and staff says "tommorow". then i show him my violation slip and he gave a note to show them security office the evidence that i still don't have my uniform. that damned office still doesn't believed that note and send me to student's affair's office to get someone signed my note. there, they wondered why the s.o doesn't believe the no uniform's note. i also wondered why!!! good thing they signed it. i went back to get my i.d and went home. so tired of walking here and there, so i sleep! hahah...

Thursday

Fine day in a hell week. a single light exam in the afternoon. i also got my uniform. *.* that night i was so happy to learned that ate maan will not be sleeping in the boarding house. wooohooh!!!! if she sleep there, a guy will also be sleeping there. because next day i will be having a tough major exam from a minor subject! releif a little that i can study. after all my relaxing do this, do that. i planned to study... ok i'm on study and study. then around 3am, ate maan came with p.j ... though they went straight back to ate maan's bunk, they were chit chatting! and their voices irritated me so hard! darn! i sleep instead! not worried about my exam because i'm worried more about my angina and i already have difficulty in brathing because of how i felt... i will be so happy to get otu of this boarding house or ate ate maan moves away! it's either one of us!!!

Friday

i'm not actually excited about the exam. but i do feel excitement because i will be going back home in sto. tomas! fast forward im home! i show my parents my uniform!!!! weeehhhh!

Saturday

SLEPT THE WHOLE DAY

and now awake blogging!!!...

P.S i have alot of funny conversation i want to put on

P.S #2 pictures were on mark's phone

2009-07-09T19:47:00.005+08:00

Happy

Birthday

Papa!!!

numb the pain

2009-06-19T15:58:00.002+08:00

Blog

deAd

until

! Can geT holD of

MySelf

Aga!N

T.T

moving forward and forward --->

2009-06-06T23:04:00.003+08:00

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived

I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside

Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing

And why can't I let it go

MONDAY

..... ! actually noticed that ! woke up late in the morning even though ! slept early the night before. it took me ages to noticed that neighborhood is quite. then a thought struck me! it was June 1st! the kids who always so noisy and so bothersome are back to school! vacation, the time of their life ended! woohuh! =.= . . . . father called, telling me to go to school and get enrolled. but the thing is, i haven't prepared any of the requirements... o.0

..... anyways, i met up with Geriz that afternoon and went to gym. the attendance were only quarter of the regular number. so, doc. abe decided to cancel taebo session thus we just go work out only. well, i didn't work out, geriz only, i'm not in the mood to work out. then one of the gym's client begged doc. abe to have taebo session coz' she's kinda desperate to lose weight and decrease her body size because she's GETTING MARRIED! good for her! =.= .... with that, we had taebo for only 30 mins.

TUESDAY

..... a nice pleasant dream then suddenly my mom woke me up so early! but ! continue sleeping, ignored the wake up call. proceed back to my dream, then minutes after, mom woke me up again! waking me up by someone that i know for myself i don't have to is making me upset and bad mood! then she explained her self that we must go to school and get enrolled. but i think we'll gonna be late and requirements were still not prepared.

..... afternoon came, i went to tanauan to buy all the requirements needed, and a picture taken for the required 2x2 pic. i accidentally bump with my 1st yr. h.s English teacher, ms. carandang, though i was too shy to talk to her... xD

..... went home, i waited for geriz's text message, saying we won't go gym for the rain was so hard and probably their was a flood on the way.

WEDNESDAY

..... Woke up so early, i really have to get my self enrolled or else I'm dead meat! T.T .... With my mom, we went to UNIVERSITY OF PERPETUAL HELP in Biñan. We left Sto. Tomas raining, reached Calamba with cloudy skies and few drizzles. We ate breakfast in Jollibee, because it's gonna be a long day for us. And true enough, we reached Biñan with a super shinning sun!! like literally! i wore a jacket believing it will also be raining hard there. though it rain when we were bout to go home.

..... it was a matter of time we did realize that we have a lot of paper to be xerox copied. from the admission to the xerox center outside campus which was about 5 minutes walk mom and i walk back and forth for about 3 times! and for the fourth time, mom do it alone =.=

..... when all the papers were ready, the staff took me to the Dean's office for my subjects. i wasn't able to get all the desired subject i knew i will be able to from my evaluation day because the person that day was different, and they weren't able to look at other college course with the same subject course. talking about luck huh?!

..... we were lead to 4th floor for the payment, and luckily my mom were able to keep up. Last time she went there, she were easily tired and short for breath. there were 7-8 steps or counter we had to fall in. on the second to last counter were the Student Body, they ask for student council fee, and asked us to returned to them after the last counter, and so we did. they checked for the validation of my enrollment and placed a S.B stamp on my registration form and greeted us "WELCOME TO PERPETUAL". well, they actually greeted my mom and not me! T.T

..... we were asked to proceed to the Guidance Office which were on their lunch break. so, we went outside and looked for a possible boarding house. we saw one, which is just outside the school, we checked it out, it was good, but not enough for me. the room were long, able to have 7 occupants, but i found the room not well ventilated even though i will bring my own fan, the room will still be looking hot because there were only one window! and for the day light it's still look dark inside. We went to 7/11 because it is also just in front of the school, we had drinks. we still haven't eaten lunch, because i told her we would rather eat after the whole enrollment thing.

..... thinking that the office of the Guidance is back in operating hours, we proceed there. they had me answer questions which just like the tagged and survey question i answered here. i think my answers were quite disturbing... =.= i felt quite exhausted already, so i answered lazily... xD

..... after that, i'm now official Perp's student! yey me!

..... we continue looking for boarding house, and we found two. the first one were already full so she recommend the one beside her. the second one were still have vacancies, but the bed available were the upper part of double deck-er. we have it reserve for me. we took it, the place were good enough,

walking distance from school,

the way there were a lot of houses and business stalls so it won't be scary to pass there at night,

the room were well ventilated although i think i still have to bring my own fan (i don't trust the ceiling fan will reach me enough),

there is a place outside where we could have laundry

the bathroom is inside the room

we have own kitchen sink inside

it's cheap! for only a thousand a month. 800 for the rent, electricity will be parted among us boarders, the water is free and i don't think that i would pay whole 200 on my part for electricity.

..... after that we decided to head off. we left at around 2 pm... for the big surprised of the day, TRAFFIC! it took us nearly 4 hours in the traffic! and the source was, this humongous "acacia" tree blocked the road. i think it was due to the heavy rain, that the soil eroded and let loose on the tree.

..... we reached Calamba. we ate lunch/dinner. or it was dinner alone and we completely skipped lunch. we stretched our legs by having stroll on the mall. and honestly, i really feel so tired that time. that on the road home, i fell asleep straight from Calamba up to Sto. Tomas! reached home, went to sleep as fast as i could.

THURSDAY

..... tired from enrolling, woke up late in the afternoon! text Geriz that i can't go gym 'coz i still feel exhausted.

FRIDAY

..... stayed home. it was raining hard outside the whole day. at night, i gave geriza my liquid eyeliner that i'm not using, we didn't go to the gym knowing that it might be our last day there. we won't risk walking on floody Tanauan!

SATURDAY

..... mom was preparing my things that i will be bringing in my boarding house. she's the only one preparing and gathering my things, i don't think i should prepare it yet, even though school will start this coming monday. in fact i still don't want to go to school on Monday. i'm not prepared mentally! o.O hahah

it's raining really heavy this days...

due to climate change T.T

we have heavy low pressure area

around the Philippines corner....

tawa k nmn

2009-06-02T23:54:00.003+08:00

When you walked through the door

It was clear to me (clear to me)

You’re the one they adore, who they came to see (who they came to see)

You’re a … rock star (baby)

Everybody wants you (everybody wants you)

Player… Who could really blame you (who could really blame you)

We're the ones who made you

.
.

.
.

gloomy day... i say...

oh well,

my Kuya Erap always sending me e-mails...

some are imformative,

like health and medicine;

some are news currently circling Saudi Arabia and Philippines;

and just recently,

a joke!

i really laugh on those!

here they are...

hope you'll laugh too! -.-

Misis : Darling, ano ang tawag sa isang asawa na sexy, maganda, hindi selosa,mapagmahal, .............masipag, mapagkalinga, masarap magluto?
Mister: Guni-guni!

***

TANONG: Paano mo sasabihin sa isang babae na mataba siya nang hindi siyamababastos?
SAGOT: 'Uhm, excuse me, miss...Mang Tomas ba ang lotion mo?'

***

Aanhin ko ang napakalaking bahay, mamahaling sasakyan, milyun-milyongkayamanan, at masasarap na pagkain kung ang kapit-bahay ko ang may-ari ng mgaiyun?!

***

Nanay: Ano 'tong malaking zero sa test paper mo?
Anak : Hindi po 'yan zero, 'Nay. Naubusan lang ng star ang teacher kokaya binigyan niya ako ng moon! Moon lang 'yan, 'Nay, promise!

***

Mga sikat na salawikain:
.
Better late than pregnant.
.
Kapag may tiyaga, good luck!
.
Aanhin pa ang damo...kabayo ba ako?
.
Do unto others, then, run! Run! Run!
.
Ang hindi magmahal sa sariling wika ay lumaki sa ibang bansa.
.
Ang lalaking nagigipit, sa bakla kumakapit.

***

Guro: Sino si Jose Rizal?
Juan: Di ko po kilala.
Guro: Ikaw Pepe?
Pepe: Di ko rin po kilala..
Guro: Di nyo kilala si Jose Rizal?
Pedro: Ma'm, baka po sa kabilang section sya!

***

Paano humamon ng AWAY ang ...
BULAG?
Magpakita kayo mga Duwag!
DULING?
Isa Isa Lang! para patas ang Laban!
PILAY?
Patay kung Patay! Walang Takbuhan!

***

Husband: Kung di ako makaligtas sa operasyon ko bukas, ikaw na sana angbahalasa lahat-lahat. .. I LOVE YOU!
Wife: Tumigil ka! wala pang namamatay sa TULI!

***

Pedro: Pare balita ko bading ka daw. totoo ba?!
Ambo: Pare, Mga chismax lang 'yun galing sa mga chuvanes na walang magawasa mga chenilyn nila.... chura nila! hmpf!

***

Boy: Di na tuloy ang kasal natin
Girl: Bakit?!
Boy: Kuya mo kasi eh!
Girl: Hindi no! Gusto ka ng Kuya ko!
Boy: Yun nga eh...gusto ko rin ang kuya mo!

***

Juan: San ka galing?
Pedro: Sementeryo, libing ng byenan ko.
Juan: E bakit puro kamot ang mukha at braso mo?
Pedro: Mahirap ilibing eh... Lumalaban!!

***

BALIW (tumawag sa mental hospital): Hello... may tao po ba sa Room 168?Telephone
Operator: Wala po, bakit?
Baliw: Check ko lang kung nakatakas talaga ako!

***

Misis: lolokohin ko mister ko, magpapanggap ako na prosti dito sa kanto.
Timing (dumaan ang mister nya....)
Misis: Pogi! available ako ngayon, pwede ka ba?
Mister: Yoko sayo...kamukha mo misis ko!

***

American guy named Paul challenged a Filipino:
American: Use my name 4 times in a sentence!
Pedro: Paul, be carePaul, you might Paul in the swimmingPaul.

***

Biyaya na makukuha sa Gulay:
AMPALAYA - pampapula ng dugo
KALABASA - pampalinaw ng mata
TALONG - pampatirik ng mata
MANI - pampatirik ng TALONG.
Ay! nalito na ako.

***

Quote for the Day...
Ang Buhay ay parang bato...it's Hard.

***

Kapag may kaaway ka, tandaan mo....dito lang ako... dito lang talagaako...tapos dyan ka lang, wag kang pupunta dito! Baka madamay ako.

***

Prospective Employer to Applicant: ' So why did you leave your previousjob?'
Applicant: ' The company relocated and they did not tell me where!'

***

Juan: Birthday ng asawa ko...
Pedro: Ano regalo mo?
Juan: Tinanong ko kung ano gusto niya.
Pedro: Ano naman sinabi?Juan: Kahit ano basta may DIAMOND.
Pedro: Ano binigay mo?
Juan: Baraha.

3 turns must be enough

2009-05-31T00:14:00.007+08:00

just a wrapped-up on what happened in my may:

on the first two weeks of may;

gym, sleep, inet, sleep, gym, sleep, inet,

inet was now boring for me,

but i still can't help myself not to turn it on =.= (adik!).

it's like a drug to me... 0.o

so ! ended up watching jon and kate plus 8 on line.

present episodes on t.v can't seemed to satisfy me...

i looked for past episodes and future ones,

'coz present telecast here in the Philippines are seemed delayed..

actually, it can now be paired with my favorite team...

BrGy. GiNebRa G!n KinGs!

before, no other show can make my itchy fingers to change the channel

but now, J&K+8 seemed to make my fingers really itchy...

they now share time with my fav team.

the 2nd wk seemed to be twisted...

Ginebra won the second slot automatic semis position =.=
to my horror. INTERNET CONNECTION DISCONNECTED!, their office were moved, so technically we did'nt know where to pay.. does'nt matter because
Sheila still got her connection, so we much on line drama for 5 straight nights!

3rd week! "Shit happens"

mother had finally paid the bill on the nearest office

which is just a hundred kilometers away! 0.0
then we waited probably about more than a week for the reconnection

the operator said "followed-up has been made to the main office"
for almost two weeks!

by the way,

i secretly joined PCSO (lotto, i mean for real)

now that i'm already of age,
can't seem to resist the huge sum of grabd prize! woohuhuh =.=

did't win though...

my first losing ticket T.T

3rd week to 4th

gym continues...

i don't even think that i lose weight,

my best friends can't answer why though...

where did you hear V-cut talked, nor chocolates and sodas can speak???

on the upper side,

my mom got the papers i needed for transferring

but first,

the registrar gave the wrong papers...

they gave her kevin's

so she waited long enough for the registrar to produce mine.

could you imagine kevin's face on mine??

my possible schedule, tentative only,

got from the day i went for the evaluation...

ssuurrbbeeii..♣♠♦♣

2009-05-31T00:00:00.003+08:00

once again,

I'm sunk into darkness

that for others,

it may seem nonsense or waste of time

but for me,

it's is just one of my sanctuary....

1. Musta bakasyon mo?

- ayos lng, wlang pinagkaiba s normal n araw...

2. Palagi ka bang umaalis?

- hindi ..

3. Masaya ka naman ba?

- stoned!

4. Bakit?

- eh s aun eh...

6. Kailan pasukan ninyo?

- sa june 15 dw..

7. Sa tingin mo, bakit kailangan mag-aral?

- para matuwa ang magulang, sila nmn ang my gusto at pera nmn nila...

8. E bakit kailangan ng tubig?

- for drinking: para hnd aq madehydrate at hnd aq ngsbi s mama q ng "mama hiney hurts... T.T"

for other purposes: para my pampaligo!

9. Anong gusto mo? Sports, Music o Acting?

- sports and music.

10. Makulit ka ba?

- minsan lang, pag nag-isip bata n nmn aq...

11. Maingay ka ba?

- nope.

12. May kaaway ka ba?

- hmmmmppp.. UO

13. Meron bang special sa araw na ito?

- relieved from hiney hurts!!

14. Musta naman love life mo?

- ZzeroO

15. Sino naman bf/gf mo?

- zero-kun, kung kilala mo 'yon..

16. May nagalit na ba sa iyo dahil sa isang tao lang?

- oo.

17. Saan ka nag-aaral?

- exiting DMMC- Institute of Health Sciences, entering **** (still confidential)

18. Musta naman doon?

- ewan q... physically absent

19. Kaya mo pa ba mag-aral?

- oo...

20. Musta mga grades mo?

- aus lng, naipang-aasar p s mga gahaman s grades =.=

21. May bagsak ka ba?

- WALA! =.=

22. Saan ka kumakain sa school mo?

- sa cafeteria..

23. Sino kasama mo?

- friends/classmates

24. Bakit?

- gutom din sila

25. Anong subject ka natulog?

- college, wla; nung highschool, lahat ng math sesion q nakakatulog aq...

26. Nagcutting ka na ba?

- oo for a good reason; oo pag sobrang bored aq s klase...

27. Lagi ka ba late pumasok?

- hehehe.. YES!

28. Sumayaw ka na ba sa school mo?

- oo

29. Bakit ka sumayaw?

- para may grade...

30. E kanta?

- nope

31. Ang init no?

- malamig ngaun. umulan ngaun eh..

32. Mahilig ka ba manood ng dvd?

- oo..

33. E text?

- nope.

34. Internet?

- super.

35. Mahilig ka bang gumimik?

- hnd..

36. bored ka ba ngeun?

- yup

37. anu paborito mong kanta

- more to life by stacie orrico

38.anu kanta ngeun?

- the climb by miley cyrus

39. Si vic sotto ay..

- may show n s channel 5

40. Si ely ng eraserheads ay..

- sa pupil n.

41. Gusto kong lumipad..

- at matulog s ulap.

42. Gusto kong pumunta sa..

- Greece

43. Gusto kong kumain ng..

- spicy yumpanada.. yumyum =.=

44. Gusto kong maging..

- invisible.

45. Gusto ko sanang..

- makatapos na ng pag aaral.

46. Palagi na lang..

- mainit.

47. Meron din akong..

- asperger's syndrome

48. It's not..

- contagious

49. Pagod na kong..

- magalit.

50. Habulin mo..

- happiness mo! happiness!

51. Last, anong masasabi mo sa survey?

- palipas oras ..

Gone A.W.O.L

2009-05-05T00:21:00.003+08:00

ATTENTION!

BLOG WORLD

your girl here is on BLOG leave!

(is there anything like that??)

as you noticed, there is no recent updates on this blog.

the last posts were songs that help me reflect during the holy week...

yes, the holy week. or more precisely, i actually stop blogging since vacation starts...

i'm not stressed nor in the mood to blog about anything.

and I haven't gone anywhere. every night till the break of dawn i'm infront of my computer...

just to keep up,

here is my daily routine. (exaclty! routine on vacation days)

everynight (sometimes in day) of every week: in front of computer, into inet surfing, intruding other blogs, killing boredom by watching on-line asian dramas, chatting

monday.tuesday,thursday,friday (either 7:30 am or 6:30 pm) : go to the fitness gym, i generally do taebo,

other days or other time: i am fixing my self and all that jazz to transfer school!

yes baby, I'm transferring AGAIN! wooh hoo! (i should have blog about this thingy!)

SLEEPING is my hobby! TOO LAZY BUMBUM!

=.=

i tried to join the AKO MISMO advocacy campaign,

i first heard it on GAME KNB

when its host edu manzano plugged about it,

right now i'm still waiting for the confirmation e-mail.

sweet and serene....

2009-04-13T00:45:00.002+08:00

holy week...

april 5-12, 2009

or Lenten season...

a week devoted by Roman Catholic for the salvation of mankind by its Savior....

its color is violet, signifies the Lent by the Church
time of prayers and reflections
a time for oneself to Him

it is the time of the year that a part of me is very lonely, though i do not have any reasons to...

it is the time of the year that i always feel a mistake in me... a wrongly things done but not committed...

it is a time of the year when i feel there will always be hope of light for tommorrow, even i have nothing to look forward to...

it is a time of the year that i always feel i don't have any rights to smile even when i have to...

it is the time of the year that i always feel that people around me are fools in their own way for celebrating it...

it is the time of the year that i always question my self, "why am i being so fool not to feel this but i always think of this???"

it is the time of the year that i feel that i am nothing compared to Him

it is the time of the year that i can't joke about but i don't know why? but still, i did once...

it's not violet, it's red for blood, for suffering
time of confusion, i never prayed or reflect on things but i always have a feeling that i am talking to Him always, that i know what i did wrong and right...
time of crying to Him, i really don't know why, but i am sad...

Palm Sunday

well, i didn't attend mass, but my mom did. she went solo. she actually attended the 6 a.m mass. way too early for me. she did wake me up but not ot join her but to transfer bed to accompany my 18 months old cousin that is staying with us this summer.

around 7 a.m, mom was not yet home, but Allen woke up already... (i'm sensing trouble OK?)

Allen(in babyish way of talking).Cyrle

Good morning! =.=

Tita?? (face about to cry!)

Not here...

Silent

Lis jan! (go away)

nope!

dun k labas! (there! outside)

Carry him outside ><

then mom came...

quiet day...

Holy Monday

Holy Tuesday

Grandma came to fetch up Allen so he can stay with his parents the rest of the holy week. Sarah ended up going with them.

Holy Wednesday

movie marathon with mom, watch harry potter movies from 1 - 5! for real!!! then evening came, i tend to watch the pirates of the carribean. finished the first installment but cut short the second one.

Maundy Thursday

continued the movie marathon. watched the rest of the 2nd pirate movie then move on with the third... mom went to Kuya jessie to borrow more movies. next in lines were the negotiator, men in black, men in black ii. we actually didn't care that those movies were old and watched them over a hundred times already...

and guess what???

i saw a shooting star around 6:30

Good Friday

woke up late. ate late breakfast... mom and aunts were outside chatting... i ended up getting their blood pressure... ate yums, mom cooked coco jam to bribed me so that no lunch!!!! moms... evening came, we ate dinner at the hut together with aunts and cousins...

Black Saturday

i actually slept whole day....

Easter Sunday

the warrior is a child

2009-04-11T02:24:00.002+08:00

Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing, strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me, I'm hiding all the tears

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Deep inside this armour - the warrior is a child.

Unafraid because His armour is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest.
People say that I'm amazing - never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies that lay me at His feet.

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
'Cause deep inside this armour...

Deep inside this armour...
Deep inside this armour...
The warrior is a child.

tell the world of His love

2009-04-11T02:08:00.002+08:00

For God so loved the world

He gave us His only Son

Jesus Christ our Savior

His most precious one

He has sent us His message of love

And sends those who hear

To bring the message to everyone

In a voice loud and clear

Let us tell the world of His love

The greatest love the world has known

Search the world for those who have walked

Astray and lead them home

Fill the world's darkest corners

With His light from up above

Walk every step, Every mile, Every road

And tell the world,

Tell the world of His love

(Tell the world of His love)

Our Lord our savior our king

Emmanuelle prince of peace

Begotten of the Father's love

Born to set us free

Let heaven and earth sing His phrases

His righteousness proclaim

Let every heart rejoice in His love

And magnify His name

Let us tell the world of His love

The greatest love the world has known

Search the world for those who have walked

Astray and lead them home

Fill the world's darkest corners

With His light from up above

Walk every step, Every mile, Every road

And tell the world,

Tell the world of His love

(Tell the world of His love)

Let us tell the world of His love

The greatest love the world has known

Search the world for those who have walked

Astray and lead them home

Fill the world's darkest corners

With His light from up above

Walk every step, Every mile, Every road And tell the world,

Tell the world of His love

(Tell the world of His love)

Tell the world of His love

heal our land

2009-04-11T01:54:00.002+08:00

If my people will humble themselves

Humble themselves and pray

If they seek my face and humble themselves

And turn from their wicked ways

REFRAIN 1

I will hear from heaven and forgive their sins

I will hear from heaven and heal their land

CHORUS

Lord, heal our land

Father, heal our land

Hear our cry and turn our nation back to You

Lord, heal our land

Hear us oh, Lord, and heal our land

Forgive our sin and heal our broken land

Lord, we vow our knee, we humble ourselves

Humble ourselves and pray

Lord, we seek your face and humble ourselves

And turn from my wicked ways

REFRAIN 2

Father in Your mercy, forgive our sins

Father in Your mercy, come heal our land

[Repeat CHORUS twice]

CODA (Lord, heal our land Father, heal our land)

Hear our cry and heal our broken land

2009-04-11T01:40:00.001+08:00

I
Lord I come to you
Let my heart be changed,renewed
Flowing from the grace
That I found in You.
And Lord Ive come to know
The weaknesses I see in me
Will be stripped away
By the power of Your love.

Chorus:
Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side.
And as I wait
Ill rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with you
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love..

II
Lord unveil my eyes
Let me see You face to face
The knowledge of Your love
As You live in me.
Lord renew my mind
As Your will unfolds in my life
In living every day
In the power of Your love

***
Hold me close
Let Your love surround me
Bring me near
Draw me to Your side.
And as I wait
Ill rise up like the eagle
And I will soar with you
Your Spirit leads me on
In the power of Your love..

i see You Lord

2009-04-11T01:16:00.004+08:00

I'm so blessed my Lord

I can see you

In all the lovely things

So fine and true

I see you in the beauty

Of the flowers and the rain

I see you between the lines

Of a sweet refrain

I'm so blessed my Lord

I can see you

Even when I'm lonely and in pain

I see you in the beauty of the stars at night

I see you in my life

I feel alright

I see you Lord

In sorrow and in happiness

I see you in the glory

Of sweet success

I see you Lord

Every hour, everyday

I can see you Lord

Whenever I pray

I'm so blessed my Lord

I can see you

In the smile of a baby

Sweet and true

I can see you in the eyes

Of my very best friends

I see you in these bonds

Just like your love that never ends

I see you Lord

In sorrow and in happiness

I see you in the glory

Of sweet success

I see you Lord

Every hour, everyday

I can see you Lord

Whenever I pray

I see you Lord

In sorrow and in happiness

I see you in the glory

Of sweet success

I see you Lord

Every hour, everyday

I can see you Lord

Whenever I pray

I pray...

I can see you Lord

Whenever I pray...

I see you Lord...

one more gift

2009-04-11T00:50:00.002+08:00

Refrain:

If there’s one more gift

I’d ask of you,

Lord it would be peace here on earth

as gentle as your children’s laughter

All around, all around

Verse 1:

Your people have grown weary

Of living in confusion

When will we realize

That neither heaven is at peace

When we will live not in peace

(Refrain)

Verse 2:

Grant me serenity within

For the confusions around

Are mere reflections..

Of what’s within..

What’s within in me?(Refrain)

Lead me Lord

2009-04-10T23:48:00.005+08:00

Lead me Lord

Lead me by the hand

And make me face the rising sun

Comfort me through all the pain

That life may bring

There’s no other hope

That I can lean upon

Lead me Lord

Lead me all my life

Walk by me

Walk by me across

The lonely road that I may face

Take my arms and let your hand

Show me the way

Show the way to live inside your heart

All my days, all my life

[refrain]

You are my light

You’re the lamb upon my feet

All the time my Lord

I need You there

You are my light I (just) cannot live alone

Let me stay by Your guiding love

All through my life

Lead me Lord

Even though at times

I’d rather go alone my way

Help me take the right direction

Take Your road

Lead me Lord

And never leave my side

All my days, All my life

[refrain 2]

You are my light

You’re the lamb upon my feet

All the time my Lord

I need You there

You are my light I (just) cannot live alone

Let me stay by Your guiding love

All through my life

All through my days

Lead me, O Lord

Lead me Lord

intrams!

2009-03-28T21:34:00.001+08:00

1st day

2nd day

3rd day

ABSENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Friday the 13th

2009-03-13T22:13:00.005+08:00

All ! wanted just spun right past me

While ! was rooted fast to the earth

! could be stuck here for a thousand years

Without your arms to drag me out

It was just last night when i clearly noticed that it is friday the 13th today. Com'on, what's the big deal? People keep telling it is unlucky day! Superstitions! Honestly, I do believe in superstions if it tells to bring good ones or lucky ones, but am not really into it. And if it brings bad lucks, I surely not believing it and I don't plan to either! xD

Friday, boring as time past on me. Actually, I have a class. Health Economics. But I ditched it! Again! I've been ditching my classes for two weeks in a row now. Imagined it! Right after the fieldtrip, I haven't back to school. Due to standard issues of I-don't-want-to-see-those-stupid-classmates'-faces. And my mom knows it. =.=

The usual routine of no class happenned. Eat. Sleep. iNet.

Oh well, yesterday, Claire and Tin made a stop at my place before going home to their respective places from school. They picked up my assignment in Health Eco. that they passed today. They did'nt linger like the usuals. But before they went home, they gave me this pin saying "I'm not emo, I'm just in".

tnx a lot guys!

Claire.Tin.Moi

that's your description, right?

yeah

well, it's yours

tnx. =.=

It's not really a big deal, but, somewhat somehow it's been a big deal! Last year, but not so last year because it's in this second sem. Just because I had bangs, this teacher of mine started to call me emo! I got bangs just for a change from the boring clean layers I always got from Lovely. I planned of having it because it is ordinary, it is still in the flow. I planned to changed because it's a new sem. After the emo thing, it gradually changed into "ADDICT!" . I know it is a joke, but always??? hmmh... The thing is, it was not ADDICT, it was ADIK!, like your pointing on a real user of illegal drugs. I already let it passed. Because now, all teachers probably hate me!

sorry, got bored. not tired.

anong gagawin mo kapag?

2009-03-02T16:22:00.004+08:00

ANONG GAGAWIN MO KAPAG:

1. may lumapit sa'yo at nagpa-autograph?
--piprma! ciempre artista n tingin sau!!! =.=

2. bigla kang hinalikan ng close/best friend mong opposite sex?
--ok lng... tatawa... may magseselos eh... wahehehe

3. binigyan ka ng nanay mo ng 100php at sinabing umalis ka na at mabuhay ka na magisa?
--hihingi ng dagdag! kulng ang 100 noh!

4. pinuntahan ka ng crush mo sa bahay mo?
--kilig to the max! ligawan n!

5. dinare kang magyosi?
--nong kapalit?

6. nalaman mong 1month ka na lang pwedeng mabuhay?
--pupuntahan q c ___ at hahalikan cia... solved n!

7. binackstab ka ng kaibigan mo?
--what comes around goes around. it's called karma baby. =.= naunahan q n cia!

8. inalok ka ng GMA7 para sa isang commercial?
--basta b kaexsena q c Chris Tiu at Ginebra, bkt hind? =.=

9. hinabol ka ng aso?
--SCREAM!

10. natawagan ka ng isang favorite celebrity mo by accident?
--0.0 faint! then Scream! woohooo!

11. sumemplang ka sa harap ng crush mo?
--faint! para buhatin nia q!

12. nagkagusto ka sa crush ng friend mo?
--cnbi q s kny nung wala n ciang crush para dun

suveys from friendster bulletin or should i say tagged??

2009-03-02T15:11:00.002+08:00

1. do you hate being alone?
--in my room? hell no! ; in school and other places Yes!

2. do you know anyone named Chris?
--Yes!

3. ever kissed anyone with a name starting with D?
--nope

4. do you have any siblings?
--yes i do

5. do you have a look alike?
--yup! c Brenda!

6. what color are the walls in your bedroom?
--reddish-purple for the body, orange at the bottom, yellow boarders at top

7. are you named after a grandparent?
--nope!

8. are you a heavy sleeper?
--in what degree? I do sleep a lot, but I can wake up easily...

9. who did you last hug?
--my mom

10. what's a sure way for someone to catch your attention?
--magpaawa effect!

11. do you find it easier to forgive or forget?
--forgive... lambutin aq

12. give me a lyric from the song you're listening to?
--now you're all in my grill, 'coz i say what i feel, don't be a phunk phunk

13. last person you received a message from?
--Khristine

14. do you like to read?
--yes!

15. are you a jealous person?
--yes but i hate it when i'm admitting it...

16. what made you smile today?
--silly things that kenneth made earlier

17. what are you doing?
--bloging?? obviously!

18. what did you do yesterday?
--sleeping the whole day! still tired from fieldtrip and from the stupidity of a classmate

19. what's the first thing you would do with a million dollars?
--budget, keep...

20. how many hours did you sleep last night?
--3 to 4 hours...

21. who was the last person you had a sleep over with?
--cousin

22. who was the last person that creeped you out?
--day care!

23. do you like your school?
--hell no!

24. what jewelry are you wearing?
--none.

25. anything fun happened today?
--as of now?, nothing funny happened..

26. anything bad happened today?
--i would'nt call it bad, just hmm. badtrip on some stupidity?

27. are you mad at anyone?
--inis lang.

28. what's the last thing you bought?
--mcdo take outs

29. have you cried today?
--nope.

30. do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?
--yes! she probably talk her anger out!

31. do you have shoes on?
--none

32. what's the closest thing to you that is pink?
--my finger and toe nails and my slippers

33. do you get annoyed easily?
--yes

34. do you like someone?
--yes =.=

35. what are you going to do this weekend?
--plan to participate in intrams, rest??

36. are you good at saving money?
--no! T.T

37. what should you be doing right now?
--sleeping

38. do you have a tattoo?
--nope... i had once, but only henna, last last summer...

39. what are you missing?
--peace of mind.

40. is there a secret you've never told your bestfriend?
--yes.

41. have you ever told anyone you hated them?
--yes, but i really didn't mean it, and now they misconceptualized it!

42. have you ever changed your clothes in the car?
--nope

43. what will you do in 2010?
--cry! tanda q n!

44. what makes you happy at this moment?
--chris tiu's you tube...

word war

2009-03-01T22:43:00.004+08:00

PUTANG INA NYONG LAHAT!

KAINIS KAYO!!!

PAGUMPUGIN KO KAYO!

PUTIK!

LINTIK!

BWISET! BWISET!

KAINIS!

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!

wAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

xtr ordnry eductinl fld trip!!!!!

2009-03-01T21:48:00.045+08:00

Feb. 28, 2009

It was our educational field trip, entitled "DMMC-IHS on Tour" in Bulacan. Well, it was not like any other boring field trip because this one has hiking activity, against from the boring historical and museums.

Woke up 2:30 am, took bath and all that rituals going out... No breakfast yet! T.T

Went to school with Sheila at exactly 4 am, surprisingly we were one of the first students came. Got on numbered 2 bus, consisting all the 1st year students, irregulars, bio-med students and some staff. I actually reserved seats for the PTs but they were late! All other students wanted to take those seats, and on my dismay I gave them away! Then, I don't know if it is fortunately or unfortunately, the accounting staff announce that all paid students will go down the bus! It was due to jammed pack population of the students joining the trip. They said that they will prioritized first those who already paid to have a seat than others who presented promissory note. Others were forced to pay, like Sheila, (tawagin b nmn nme mo s mike n nkasigaw p! hnd k kya mphiya nun). After all that jazz, we were still on the same seat but jammed pack, those in the middle seat were said to be transferred in another bus waiting in Sucat. the normal number in a row is five, but in Allen's row, they were 6! Namely Claire, Tin, Allen, Ange, Nieeveh and Sheena, while me and Sheila were seating comfortably! =.=

The bus took off around 6 am! very late from the said 5:15 departure time. Along the way, our tour guide explain those landmarks we passed by. He even gave a little ice breaker, which was very childish indeed, but we all participated!

First stop, the Barasoain church. Arrived at around 8 - 9 am.. went to museum and bla bla bla...

Second stop, the home for the aged. Where we were able to had some chit-chats with the elderly confined in this pitiful place! Yes. It is pitiful place! Your here all alone with other elderly any volunteers but no relatives! Heart breaker!

Allen.Sheila

Grabe

nakakadurog ng puso

ah ah! ayoko nito

ako din

pagtanda mo iiwanan ka dito. aba!

Sheila.moi

Ate tingnan mo, para rin palng c tatay oh!

*look*

elderly scratching his tighs

*laughs*

Third stop, Ocampos house of Sweets! BUt it was a long long travel from the church to this house of sweets. It felt like from other boarder to another boarder of Bulacan Province. Most of us ate junk foods. Arriving here, we thought of lunch time but hell no! we were supposed to eat at Biak na Bato which is another 30 mins travel and it was already 1 pm! Most of our bus mates were hallucinating due to starving! some were playing with them selves. the most stupid part ws our stomach denied all those junk foods and demanded on rice!

"may food ka pa?"

"eto lang"

"ah ah! chichiria n nmn?! ayoko n nyan!"

Allen

Biak na Bato! Biak na Tyan ko!

sir Louie

one more kilometer!

Allen

siguraduhin nio lang n mganda yan!

Then we arrived at biak na bato! School mates ate their lunch. Sheila and I went on our Subo system. Others went on changing clothes. We also bought new pairs of flip flops for the hiking.

The bus took us for another ride to the entrance to the cave. it was very rocky road! some went stumbling. Bus 1 and Bus 2 along with bus 3 were separated so that we can be manageable. We went inside the cave. crawling and creeping in the dark. if you really wanted light, just shout "TANGLAW" then the tour guide will lend you a light. Luckily, Claire and Allen brought their own flash light that our group used. There were also a time when you need to duck lower or climb stiff elevation or squeezed your self thru a hole.

After those walks, went to the river and clean our selves up. Some just put their feet on and some really take a plunge in the river.

After Bulacan, the side trip to a mall before going home took place. We thought it will be MOA again but this time we went to Trinoma. A very fascinating mall who have money for running water! Eye swear, this mall have no consideration on saving water, there is water along the stairs, every corner there is a fountain, on the side there is a little canal... everywhere you turned you can see water.

Wait at the parking lot for others then went home! We reached home around 11 pm, that was for those who reside at the Sto. Tomas town proper, but some of our classmates were from Talisay, Malvar, Laurel! hell no! 0.0

although, I was still able to take a bath but can no longer wait for hair to dry, went to sleep with wet hair!

Time for pictures! here are some of the pictures taken during th entire trip! moi, claire, joel and ange brought our own camera, tus decided to share pictures...

1st pic of d day w/ sheila

at the side of Barasoain church

ange, jay, sheila, moi, allen, joel, nieeveh, tin

don't worry about claire...

ms. photographer

dis is really a funny shot... noticed that sheila and i changed into shorts...

back at the bus...

one of the lessons that I learned long long time ago, when having a trip with friends, don't fall a sleep or else...

joel

kala ko hndi nio aq wawalanghiyain, kaya pal tahimik kau, nawlnghiya nio n q!

first cave, called tanggapan

out from 2nd cave

already exhausted feet

on the way to third cave...

this time, mr. joel went with his brilliant idea, he will run ahead of us then will take our picture

he run fast, we pose as fast as we can!

i'm not good at running down.. T.T can you still see me at the back?

lol... i'm at front >.<

it should also be as fast as it can get... there are still pipz behind us

pictures were most taken by joel and claire. right after the 1st cave, i didn't took out my cam

camwhoring at trinoma

parking lot waiting for others...

moi, sheila, jay, ange

candid by sheila

notice this 3 ...

the lovey

sheila

sir louie, sheila

sheila, sir louie, biomed student

last photo of the day...

and of course! the one who does it all to avoid the PT students!

GINEBRA KINGS!!!

2009-02-21T23:19:00.023+08:00

Living and kicking

2009-02-05T23:19:00.005+08:00

February 5! Yay! It's my mom's birthday! Happy Birthday mama! I Love you!

Wait, wait! It's not only my mom's birthday. It is also Geriza's birthday!

She's so sweet and bubbly girl. No wonder why everyone loved her company. You'll never get bored when she's around. Obviously, I went on reminiscing my days with her, mostly on highschool days.

Start off. I've known her for almost 14 years! She was my classmate in kindergarten. My service-mate for 3 years. My schoolmate for 6 years in my entire elementary days. For those days, I mean years, we did not really talk and hang-out with each other because we're in different section. Even though were not classmates for 6 years and no longer service-mate, we did not snob one another when we crossed paths.

Highschool days came. Of Course, new school new faces. When I lined in on our section, I actually felt so graet to learned that I have someones whom I already know. They were Geriza and Rhona. Geriza was the one who made me be comfortable in my new class. She's my first seatmate and friend in highschool. Together with Rhona, the three of us stick together like glue. We looked for each other, had recess together (we even had same kind of food), moments of laughter, we even went to same club, share gossips. Since we both have the same way home, we were always went went home together, even Rhona will walk with us and will take a jeepney ride in front of our house.

It was not only a merely same routine everyday. For everyday, they will be new things to do. When she told us whose her crush, we went like super spies. We followed him all through out the day, giving reports to her. She told us what happened, like she saw him accompanied by a girl, and we also looked after that girl and tried to find her flaws. Then we learned that they were just friends and nothing in particular. One time, when town fiesta was near, and there were also "acedera" or stalls of goods along the road, we saw her crush buy an item, then after he left, we also went to stall and she bought the same item happily.

I was still innocent and childish specially on first year and it was Geriza who not literally taught me but showed me the "proper ways" in highschool and no longer act like elementary (although most of the times I still do) so that I would not look like a jerk. There were times that we became seatmate and mind you, even in the middle of the class we were talking stories of one another. But most of the times she do the talking and I do the listening, that may be the reason why we click with each other. 'cause until now, she still talks a lot and I still like to just listen.

Geriza loves performing specially dancing. On our Christmas party in first year, she came with those loud pants that kept everyone looking at her, she also bought the tape of Sexbomb (which was so hot that time). When it played, she went dancing in the middle of the room with the exact dance steps of Sexbomb, when she noticed that they were many classmates dancing with her, she quited. Saying she no longer like the poeple dancing with her. But she didn't stop the music. The two of us were even partnered to lead our group which came out the best. For every school contest throughout highschool, she joined them except for the singing contest, but she joined all the choral contest. For many number of times she joined the contest it is equalled to my zero participation. I just enjoyed watching my friends perfoem and she is one of them. Even she hated one some of her groupmates she still participated wholeheartingly, setting aside the grudge for the sake of performance.

After Highschool. There was a large gap for communication. Even though her house is a 5 minutes walk from mine. That's because we lost each other's contact numbers. Last Christmas season, we went Simbang gabi together and talk, tlak, talk. On the way to church and home, we had endless stories about our college life, her boys and all that jazz. It was nice to see an old friend after years of no communication. She's still the same energetic girl from highschool, talking non stop.

Part of friendship is the "advice-giving". Surely,Geriza give me proper advice and comments when I needed to. She even gave me instructions, like "you should do this", "you should do that", "not this, not that". Then I will follow her. I look up to her like a big sister that I never had. I respect her opinions even at the end of it there will be a joke to laugh. On my part, I can't give her advise. I can only say "it's ok". That's because I don't know how to give her. I can't give her any of ti, because I know she is smarter than me. I don't think I can because I'm the one who look up to her. I can't go against her. AS I say I look up to her and you know that it is hard to give advice and opinion to those who are older than you or you respected most. Even I think what was on my mind would be the best for her. I can't spill it out. That's why I was surprised last time when she told me that she matters my opinion. Specially for a guy. I just grin. I don't know what to answer whenever she ask my opinion. I just cant' tell her may be the other one is better, for that guy is her ex bf. I lied to her that night. I said I didn't saw his face properly, I said that I only looked to his hair. The truth is that I saw him properly even from afar. He was not even smiling in their whole conversation. He's not that tall, not that fair skin. According to Geriza's story, he done something before to her. I don't take second rounds, and I can't tell her that she should not give the guy another chance. But Geriza was happy in her stories. How would I intercept that time that she deserve way better than that. There were still better guys out there.

Drink yes, drunk no. Geriza told me that she's been drinking and smoking. I was shock for that but expected it a little. I don't drink and smoke. But with this generation it is not surprisingly to know that even teenagers engaged in this activities. I tried to tell her she should not but I held back. She told me she do it moderately and she chooses the people to drink with. And I was like ok. I wanted to tell her, even it is called "happy-happy" or "there was an occasion", whenever and wherever it is, it is still not a good sight in the eyes to see a girl drink and smoke. Some guys don't like it either.

ang haba no?

Happy Birthday lang nmn gustong sbihin. ><

proudly pinoy

2009-02-02T22:43:00.026+08:00

Dinig mo ba ang bulong ng lahi mo?

Isigaw mo kapatid, ang himig natin...

Monday, got the meaning?! but for a changed, although it is still a boring day for me, I enjoyed it today.

uhmm... Proudly Pinoy?? well, yeah! i think it's better if it was "i love RIZAL" =.= Rizal class for today, to tell you the truth, my day became a completely Rizal moment, i guess?? so here's Y?

Came to school, head to rm 103, and guess what? I'm not late! 0.0 For the first time, i came before the proff whose known for being so punctual. =.= Classmates already there. I was soo stupid that i boast my WRONG assignment to them. T.T I didn't bother changing it anyways. heheh... Already went chit-chatting with them. But not to all of them, they were so busy on their assignments. So only talked to Kevin and lalin and ate Madelyn. hooh. It was so nice talking to those people. I told Kevin the very cheesy gossips that happened on previous weekends. not all are gossips. then our proff came in with het cool, baby-style, tweety-like hair do, close to a joke "mahangin b s labas?"

then the class started. oops! sorry, i mean the roll call started. wtf?! the roll call lasted for an hour and a half for only 12 students! hahaha, really funny. lalin even bothered to assist our proff, actually, it was Lalin who finished the izzy dizzy proff.

dr. medalla . us(students)

adel, van peter!
mam other section

after a min

adel, van peter!

mam, other section, it's from friday class!

after another min

whose this adel, van peter?! where is he? do you know him?

OTHER SECtion

tell him i want to see him

mam he does't have school today

again, after another minute

adel, van peter!

laughs

not here!

she actually called this guy 10-15 times, us, with the same answer. not only him, *drum roll please* She also called my cousin Sheila for about 5 times! Claire, who got irritated, text sheila just to clarify!

it wasn't only van peter and sheila, she called the whole missing in person for both the Friday class and Monday class!

cyrle.kevin

gosh! it already an hour for attendance
laughs

learned so many for today?

what?

well, i know whose on class A and class B.
laughs

then after an hour and a half! real class begun. We tackled the early education of Rizal in Clamba and Biñan. Adonna, whose a Redtech student reported chapter 3 of Rizal. it was only a short report because the chapter was really short. come to think of it, how does it lasted for a whole day?! 0.o when the clock hit 10:30, we asked for a break. funny that all of us were hungry, we ate Lunch food. after that return to class with the same chapter just went over and over again, that's why Monday is boring. After the quiz. The real lunch break. only kevin and lemuel went out. we stayed in. after an hour, the open notes typed quiz begun. don't know if there will be zeroed on those type of quizzes, sent text to kevin, have a hunch that he and lemuel won't return until the ENd of the class.

the quiz ended. but the proff doest even bothered to give us another things to do, except for those who did not do their homework. She asked them to do it for their sake. Claire busy doing it, while me, lalin, allen, and brenda camwhored! =.=

me.brenda.lalin

me.brenda.allen

candid><>

dr. medalla, being so oblivious about our camwhoring!

lalin and allen with his "burnt skin"

...again

allen was so proud of his burn marks!

he got that not because of praternities but because of his "emo" thing. He's been dump by his exgirlfriend

the three of us with saying we are quadruplets counting brenda as two ><

super twins of mercado! (we are not blood related) but others say we are look-a-like

Claire working on her assignment

this supposed to be a "mr. and mrs. smith" shot

spider man!

Lalin with Radtech girls, Donnalyn, Irma and Adonna, Brenda is also a Radtech student and not PT student

presenting to you the best shot of the day!

Allen and Dr. Medalla! +.=

there's still alot of pictures but my downloader is so slow.

After this Rizal, we no longer have classes. We went home. on the way, me and Clare decided to hit the town for its stalls of "tiange". Strolling, we saw a t-shirt with an image of Rizal, saying "Proudly Pinoy" and on Rizal's chest is the letter P mimicking Superman's vest. We will buy it soon when the rest of the Rizal class knew about it.

love.angel.music.baby, my sweet escape

2009-01-29T22:40:00.002+08:00

rich girl

Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
Na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na, na
[2x]

If I was a rich girl (na, na....)
See, I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl
No man could test me, impress me, my cash flow would never ever end
Cause I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl

Think what that money could bring
I'd buy everything
Clean out Vivienne Westwood
In my Galliano gown
No, wouldn't just have one hood
A Hollywood mansion if I could
Please book me first-class to my fancy house in London town

All the riches baby, won't mean anything
All the riches baby, won't bring what your love can bring
All the riches baby, won't mean anything
Don't need no other baby
Your lovin' is better than gold, and I know

If I was rich girl (na, na...)
See, I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl
No man could test me, impress me, my cash flow would never ever end
Cause I'd have all the money in the world, if I was a wealthy girl

I'd get me four Harajuku girls to (uh huh)
Inspire me and they'd come to my rescue
I'd dress them wicked, I'd give them names (yeah)
Love, Angel, Music, Baby
Hurry up and come and save me

[Eve]
Come together all over the world
From the hoods of Japan, Harajuku girls
What, it's all love
What, give it up
What (shouldn't matter 4x), what
Come together all over the world
From the hoods of Japan, Harajuku girls
What, it's all love
What, give it up
What (shouldn't matter 4x)
What happened to my life
Turned upside down
Chicks that blew ya mind, ding, it's the second round
(Original track ending, mmm)
You know you can't buy these things (no)
See Stefani and her L.A.M.B., I rock the Fetish
People, you know who I am

Yes ma'am, we got the style that's wicked
I hope you can all keep up
We climbed all the way from the bottom to the top
Now we ain't gettin' nothin' but love

don't know why, but i feel gwen stefani today, nothing new to her these days. but her songs are on my track list every time i study for exams.

flourescent

I'm not saying nothing you don't already know

You know you're too delicious, more than I can handle

Lyin' around late at night, so luscious that I ache

Baby, why'd you fall asleep? I'm still awake

I'm in love, in love with a dream

My Valentine's gone and broke my wings

I'll see in time, I feel a bit weak

You better be right, 'cause you promised me

I must have lost my mind

I can't believe you're still inside my bed

I nearly walked awayI didn't think we'd still be rollin'

Dressing up in your love is a dangerous thing

My sexy super lover's got a real bad sting

Baby, didn't want no trouble, this is more than I can afford

I can't help myself, keep coming back for more

For more, can't help coming back for more

I'm in love, in love with a dream

My Valentine's gone and broke my wings

I'll see in time, I feel a bit weak

You better be right, 'cause you promised me

I must have lost my mind

I can't believe you're still inside my bed

I nearly walked awayI didn't think we'd still be rollin'

And as I watch you sleep in the dim light

I close my eyes and pray

Another fluorescent night

Yeah, you and I

Late night lovers kickin' in the covers

Don't need no one but you and I'

Cause every day is a weekend

Forget what we were thinkin'

Another sweet fluorescent night

Ooh, oh, ooh, oh

I must have lost my mind

I can't believe you're still inside my bed

I nearly walked awayI didn't think we'd still be rollin'

And as I watch you sleep in the dim light

I close my eyes and pray

Another fluorescent night

Yeah, you and I

...and it started raining gum balls!

2009-01-29T10:51:00.004+08:00

Maybe then we could go for a ride

Drive down to the countryside

Get away from the gray

And frenzied hurly-burly of the city life

01-27-09
Tuesday

-had applied physics class.

actually, went to school earlier than usual. i tried to find my group mates and dr. lucido for our report for the next day in health eco! we really have no time to properly prepare our report. first, we don't have copies our lesson. second, one of my group mates gone for some family matters. and third, don't really have access to other members.

lunchtime. i found my group mates, and also dr. lucido. got the book and photocopied the lessons. now what's left was preparing the report. then the physics class started. came late because of the health eco stealing my time. i love physics and at the same time i hated it. my head ached for those difficult problems and the prof were giving us some hard time on tricky questions. i really did felt exhausted. i also worried the report. it's a fifty plus pages.

got home. very tired. i tried so hard to read the report but all i did was stare on it. so i decided to sleep and continue reading next day.

01-28-09

Wednesday

woke up very early and very worried about the health eco report. i actually didn't know where to start. i read it from the top. understand slowly got the whole idea, and the problem now was how to present it?! i thought about power point, but the time was already too short and don't have laptop to bring to school. I picked to use the traditional manila paper and marker. but realize that for the whole group it won't be enough and also the time. Came up with the idea of writing the important ideas and theory on paper and have it photocopied and will distribute it to the whole class. save time and cheaper! ^-^ imagine, for 7 hours i was only preparing for the report. then i took off to school. came a little late. and surprised by our prof announcing that class is cancelled! whooot! talk about the whole effort. he said we are having make-up class this coming Friday. hassle right?

went home. knock out off sleep!

damn! how i love to sleep !

01-29-09

Thursday

yay! no school! my favorite day!

well

nothing much.

watch movie.

sleep.

eat.

sleep again.

it's my usual you know?

truth, lies, and all that jazz

2009-01-26T22:24:00.004+08:00

no point in telling the truth

if the story next day was twisted and believed

if you insist

you just become a cry wolf in the plaza

trying to please strangers

that you are a harmless kitten

Monday. I hate it waking up so early on Monday morning. I have this Monday sickness you know? OK. First things first. I have Rizal class at 7:30 but the class always starts after the flag ceremony ( one of the reasons I personally hate Monday mornings; standing for so long) at around 8:3o. I woke up exactly 7, did my morning rituals, rituals before go to school and all that. Leave home at 8:40, I was supposed to leave with mom and Shiela but I can't wait for them any longer, so head off first.

Reached school around quarter to 9 and got shocked when I entered the room. Everyone was busy. WE ARE HAVING A MAJOR EXAM! *0.0* .stones. Good thing I brought my permit and had read and remembered lessons. Kevin transferred behind me (the usual?). Got some answers from Claire. Allen got some from mine yet he scored higher than me. Upset when I learned Brenda couldn't get in because she's not wearing uniform. T.T I'm so excited to boast to her that Jason was in our house =.=

After exam, we went outside the room and straight to school cafeteria. Cristine was already there. We talked about the shit that happened last Friday afternoon. God D*^n F@#%$d! The story has been already twisted and believed by some assholes! Of course, what to expect?! They will cover up for themselves. Also, that time, it seemed that mom and Shiela were already talking in the OSA. Saw Dr. Lucido been called. Then Alvin came, joined our table. Then it started the story again. I was encircled by storytellers. Honestly, they were shouting already at me! As if I'm deaf and the one who committed it. No point on explaining to them, because they obviously tried to cover up and put the innocent one on the line. Then Sheila went out of the office. Malou points her out to Alvin. Alvin shocked that he didn't know her. And we TELL HIM MANY TIMES that Sheila also don't know him and would have no motive to put him on line. Then mom went out. I decided to join them. I learned that Sheila's name had been used.

Went home.

Sleep!

Tess came over, had a pedicure. I picked green for nail polish since it's Chinese New year! =.=

There are so many people wearing mask today.

P.S I'm not believing Shiela just because we are cousins, I'm believing her because I know this time she's telling the truth.

P.S #2 I was disappointed/upset/angered a little to Ms. Smarty Pants

P.S #3 I don't want to put our friendship in toll but I really don't like how you handled the truth.

P.S #4 It's not a threat, It's just the TRUTH.

actions that linger in my mind

2009-01-25T23:25:00.002+08:00

Grant me serenity within

For the confusions around

Are mere reflections..

Of what’s within..

What’s within in me?

Yes it's SUNDAY but I have school. T.T Our RIZAL class are trying to cope the missed sessions by putting make-up classes on Sundays. It's the OnLY day that all of us are surely free.

woke up with huge guilt T.T

Before went to bed, told to myself that I would go to church first before going to school. badly, I woke up late, as in, super late for the mass.

took bath

dressed

blow dry my hair

sent text to classmates

received reply:

WE Have no class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can't tell if disappointed or not

I'm already dressed and ready to go ( sayang bihis!) T.T

I can sleep more! (favorite) -_-

helped in household chores

got sermoned by mom

irritated to sister

indulge in my own world

toooooooooooooooooo lllllllllllllaaaaaaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzzyyyyyyyyyyyyy bumbum

day dreaming

2009-01-25T01:52:00.003+08:00

Once in the dream of a night I stood

Lone in the light of a magical wood,

Soul-deep in visions that poppy-like sprang;

And spirits of Truth were the birds that sang,

And spirits of Love were the stars that glowed,

And spirits of Peace were the streams that flowed

In that magical wood in the land of sleep.

read favorite Manga on-line, the latest chapter of Alice Academy
Sleep
net surfing
read some school notes
read some last sem notes!!! T.T

I'm that bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All I did was day dreaming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

busy house

2009-01-23T23:21:00.003+08:00

01-22-2009

- i didn't have school so decided to hit the saloon for a major hair repair. My hair has been a mess for a long time.-

my hair was a no no that really needed to be tied up or ironed or else I'll look like a bush!

-i reached saloon, so excited but my favorite stylist, LOvely, was not there. She-he have an emergency and needed to go back to his-her province in somewhere south of the country. First I was so hesitated but I decided to have a service from other stylist. They said that Lovely will be back after a week. Obviously, my hair cannot wait another week of suffering. So I accepted the service from Caesar. I want my hair to be cellophane. But to my disappointment, I didn't like the colour Caesar used in my hair. He used dark brown, which obviously doesn't' look much obvious! 0.o I love my red wine colored hair that Lovely always use when I made her cellophane my hair.-

my hair that LOvely managed for some 9 months ago

hair managed by Caesar. see? the color is gone. But shiny! -.^

01-23-2009

It was already dawn when I was startled by call from my cousin Roxy. She called just to informed that they will come in our house by day together with her mom and dad. But they will go first to Tita Vicenta's house in San Rafael before coming to ours. So I waited until my mom woke up and tell her that they will come. Goodness! I felt so sleepy when the sun will ready to shine. I was overwhelmed by insomnia for two days and two nights. whoo! I slept for incredible 5 hours! STILL NOT ENOUGH! ugh!

Afternoon when the expected guests came. My Ninong, Ate Roxy's dad went straight to San Roque for some change oil, Ninang, Ate Roxy's mom, together with Tita Vicenta, Ate Aileen, Jaja, Ghim and Andrei stayed in our house. Ate Roxy who called me didn't show up, because she was still sleeping. They had some merienda. My aunts and mom had some chit-chats. Me and Ate Aileen looked after the three little kiddos! I became a nanny for hours.

Outside our house there is a nipa hut. My cousin Sheila invited our schoolmates in college to come and have some drinks. Well, the freshy of PT got seriously drunk! Some of the invited were RadTech and mostly Nursing students.

It was already 5 in the afternoon when our visitors went home. After they gone. My friends that were invited by Shiela went in our house. They watched T.V and accidentally slipped that they still have class. So even drunk they head back to school. Sheila, for no reason, went again to school. Coming back home crying, looking for my mom, telling her that she is needed to come to school tomorrow with Sheila to clear some issues. I was surprised seeing Sheila crying, accompanied by our schoolmates. because she was suspected by 2nd yr students about the "leakage issue" on the Health eco. examination. The whole circle were inside our house. I didn't know all their names. But I can't wait to to tell Brenda that JAson was in our house! whoohoo! Brenda will be so jealous knowing that her crush was in the house of her deary friend! =.=

that's all for now!

I need to sleep more. I need my energy for P.E class tomorrow!

what a day!

2009-01-21T22:07:00.007+08:00

I woke up early, because my sister was too noisy early in the morning. She heads off to her school. I ate breakfast with mom. Then I watched T.v for an hours before realising that within 5 hours, I have to take two major exams both in afternoon. It took me almost only an hour to read the lectures in health economics. READ not Study. I was watching T.V. The papers were in front of me, already reading it, but my mind was so high on cloud nine! My focus was out of reach. So, I stopped, and continue watching T.V =.=. I also didn't bother about the exam in Computer. I don't know. maybe just because I was so lazy.

Honestly, I had two major exams that I successfully went through! (thank God!) First, the Computer exam about MS excel, I was absent in all the meetings of this topic. So, as a not so surprisingly for my self, I took the exam with no lectures at all. The first part was identification, I got only one mistake, and the rest of the answers were all from what I've understand from Ms Word (good thing both are interrelated) ^.^. The second part was the practical part. Bu#@!&*t! I did it manually! Dumb me! there was a shortcut! That's why my Prof was laughing at me all the time he passed by me.

-then first exam was finished, we hung out at school cafeteria-

-I ate late lunch- (tnx to the staff who heated up the meal only for me 0.0)

-my cousin Sheila went down when she saw me eating, she also had exam in chemistry without lunch-

-the green mango vendor passed by, I bought four pieces, for me, Sheila and for Claire and Ate Raquel-

-Ian started to notice the viand I'm eating, he was eating a lollipop, took him sometime to ask me to have a taste to the beefsteak. I gave him, but I think he still needs more, he just too shy.

iancyrleclaire

it's a beefsteak

yup! i made them to heat it up!

ahh

-after long time, when the rice was almost empty and there were still alot of viand-

can I have a taste of it?

oh sure...

it's salty

of course!

it was made of soy sauce

try it with the fish sauce

hahaha

0.o

Then he had a new lollipop, and start to ask Claire to treat him for a piece of sandwich. of course Claire just ignored him because she thought he was just joking. Then Ian started to take off my wallet, I grab it from him, I also just ignored him. Then he started to tell us that we should just lend him money. also... we ignore him, we also took it as a joke.

christineianclairecyrle

yas!(my other name) ian took your wallet

look and grab the wallet off of him

laughs

-------

you three could lend me 10 pesos each

ignore

still sucking the lollipop

notice that no more candy

notice that the stick was torn in half by chewing it

Claire treat me for a slice of gardenia

i don't have money

owws?

i really don't have money

lend me money, even 20 pesos only

lends money

bought gardenia

eat right away, went off, looking out for lalin

may be he was really hungry

maybe!

-after ian left, the three of us decided to study for the next exam which was Health Economics. ian came back. Arvhie came by, also to study.-
-I gave Kua Rodell the photocopy of our report for the next meeting. -
-Kevin came, to study also-

kevincyrlecharlesDEAN

what are we going to test?

whole chapter one

may I borrow your copy?

lends copy

-a little longer-

why don't you make cheat?

can i? ;)

of course! almost our classmates know what are the answers to the exam

ehh?

there was a leakage from the the first section, if you don't cheat them, you'll be cheated.

ok ok ok. can i have a piece of paper?

here

-charles came-

let's cheat ^.^

sure! ;D

0.0???

jot down

just looking

kevin our course is BS E.T

huh? 0.o??? what E.T?

Extra Terrestrial! -_-

laughs

why?

because every time the Dean calls a meeting for PT, we were always excluded

looks to kevin O.o

laughs

jot down

bored

-the dean of PT came-

stones O.O

smiles

nice! you are studying hard

hides kodiks

hey cristine! study hard.

hey claire!

kevin. cyrle. ignored!

-Lalin came-

-nothing much-

-talks to dean-

bides farewell to lalin, christine, and clare

ignores kevin and cyrle o.O

grins :)

told you!

hahah

-we didn't know that lalin already took the exam at the library-

LalinCyrle

i'm going home

huh? how about the exam?

I already took it at the library just now

so that's why your missing...

yes!

why didn't you tell us?

I was just at the lib doing research and dr. Lucido was there so I took the exam

ahh

Study! it was really difficult

GOD!

right!

ok ok ok

-took off-

-but before she really evaporates, whispered gossip to me that was really bothersome-

but now its OK-

-from cafeteria we saw dr. Lucido going to our room, immediately decided to follow him. He was obviously in bad mood. It concerned about the "cheating/leakage" incident from the first section which is said to be passed on our section.

The usual setting of exam, at least one seat apart from one another, I sat near Clare, Kevin behind me, Arvhie and Aceyork formed V shape with Kevin. Eye swear from me to Arvhie and Aceyork we looked like a pyramid. Christine sat behind Claire and on her right was Kimberly. In front of me was Carlos Chua, I preferred him to call Chua. Obviously, there was a bad aura coming out from Dr. Lucido. This exam was my-first-ever-Dictation-type-major-exam.

The Prof became a sinful priest with it's long sermon and foul words! Pity him. We can really notice that he cannot breath well. HIGH BLOOD! Then he noticed Kevin who silently sitting on his chair. You can just feel the tension in the air.

Dr.LucidoKevin

kevin let's see what are you going to answer in this exam when you were absent in all meetings of midterm

huh? What absent?

Your not here on deliberation day and also last meeting! I've checked the attendance!

-_____-

Are you insulting me and my subject?

-_____- HUh?

You attend other subject but not mine!

How can you say so??

I've known you from the C2 incident!

ah! ah!

Yes I really do! Thanks for that incident I noticed you!

mumbling words

noticed it

Why don't you drop My subject?!

OK!

then go!

-but kevin didn't get out, still seating, ready to tAKE THE TEST-

Finally, the exam started. instead of 100 items it was reduced to 60 items test and the essay part was removed, cannot really say if it is a punishment for the crime no one in our class committed, or a compensation because we were just dragged along in the leakage issue, because we ware the other section that would benefit from it. I can classify the exam as moderate. Some are tricky question. But not really good one. Because for the whole entire exam period, the Prof was not in good mood. For the very main reason, the culprit was sending text messages while the Prof facilitates the exam. that alone irritates him. He even send someone out to buy him water. He often goes out to breath air.

On the other hand, the action of the Prof benefited others. When he goes out, others went cheating. Even the notable "Clean" Dean's Lister's' goes cheating. Can't help it, as I said earlier, the questions are very tricky and each were ask only twice. If you are deaf, sorry. If you are idiot, what a loser. I gave Kevin answers, which he passed to Arvhie and Aceyork. (PYRAMID). Stupid Aceyork! He even dares to call my name out and rephrasing the answers and ask again and again directly at me, in which we were almost one and a half meter distance from one another. Chua asked me for some answers, I also got some from him, and also Claire to me and vice-versa. But most of my answers were mine.

During the exam, the Prof read out the text message of the culprit.

"Sir I'm really sorry. I feel so ashamed that because of me my classmates are suffering. Please do think about it. How about my classmate, How about us when the board exam is coming, How can we take it, how about our parents working hard for us"

When Prof read that, I don't know if I will give a damn or not. I was overwhelmed by the exams. My head aches, at the same time I want to SLAP and PUNCH that stupid culprit. But I'm not sure who he really was, but I'm so sure that the culprit is a HE. The way I interpret his text, he sincerely asking for forgiveness but I don't like the way he ask it, not because it was a text message, but because he dares to use the words our parents, working hard, how about us, how we able to get the board. I mean. WHY he didn't have a THOUGHT of those words, of those persons, when he was committing is crime???????????????????????

stupid! Stupid! tanga! putik! kainis!

The exam was finished for almost two hours. We checked it. All are passed, the way he graded it, even a single correct answer will mean 3, because it falls on below 30 -_-

CyrleKevinArvhie

me= currently in my big head behavior

-aceyork gone like a wind-

you guys must treat me

laughs

must! must! must! =.=

Arvhie sundae. Kevin burger. Aceyork *disappears* large fries

:) sure

:) ok, sundae's mine

yas thank you

thanks

MAY BAYD UN! 0.o

tin, me, and claire went out. The siomai vendor was there, surrounded by kevin, arvhie,lemuel and some guys

cyrlekevin

Cy!

what?!

waving twenty pesos in mid air

got the idea

come!

i don't like! thanks but maybe next time. I want to go home now. I don't like siomai! It's cheap! hahaha

*grins* thanks again!

- the truth is, i also want siomai, but knowing kevin's side of stingyness, i have to decline, I'm with Claire and Christine, and he's going to treat only me. that wouldn't be fair-

home.

tired.

fall sleep without dinner

too tired to eat.

T.T

true colors

2009-01-19T23:05:00.004+08:00

i know...

i lied to you,

and i'm very sorry...

for those moments of unreality,

my dream lives on.

sorry for my selfishness

I've shown you my doubled face

because I'm afraid of the fact that you'll just ignore me.

I hide the truth for a single happiness eventhough inside I feel a thousand guilt for lying to you.

You don't know me, and you'll never will

'coz there is no way that you will pay attention to me.

the air is getting thin

and I want to stay for some time

too bad I can not live in my dreams

why don't you???

2009-01-18T04:55:00.005+08:00

If you ever need a helping hand you'll find one at the end of your arm

=Saturday=

My day started as my cousin waken me up through my window looking for hair iron, which, unfortunately for her was with our other cousin's house. I took all my morning rituals. then off to school.
I reached school and the class was already started, that because the professor mixed the first section and my class for some little competition. Good thing, there was no late for that day.

We played basketball and my team sucks! I have two teammates who did their part with a mix of I-don't-know-who-my-teammates-are. I didn't shoot, the ball for me was too heavy to lift up and throw. So, for my part, I'd helped at defence and running down the latter. I nearly smacked the face of our opponent for she held the ball for so long, hugging it by all means! and I tried to get it from her that lead to the ball smacked her face! =.=

We ate our lunch. Had some chit-chat. Suddenly, we recieved a text message from Cristine. She couldn't get to school for some lame and obvious a lie excuse.

That text irritates me! For this shows how Tin don't care about studies much. She often got absents for different lame excuses which was hard to believe. She didn't even got better grades even if she was present. It's just some of her... I don't want to talk about it anymore. Just with the decision that me and all the PT2 will once try to make her realise we will no longer aid her until she help her own self.

Sorry Tin, it's for your own good.

i'll let go

2009-01-16T22:27:00.003+08:00

-The harder you fight to hold on to specific assumptions,

the more likely there's gold in letting go of them.-

I'm currently learning "the letting go" theme in life.

I always practice this. I don't really hold on things that much.

But this time it's different.

I've got this feeling since elementary days.

No one, other than me, knows this crime of mine.

I bore it all through out the years.

Luckily, I was able to express it behind closed doors and insufferable mask.

The victim didn't able to learn who I am.

But I revealed the truth, still, behind the ghost of my adversities.

The feeling I felt,

I'm sure of it,

I will never feel it again.

For it will never be the same again.

During those times, I felt happy and at the same time, I also felt the scary feelings of endless worries.

Again, It took a year for me to be able to unleash this crime.

I swear I will never do it again.

Even though I know.

Behind this oath.

I will never be able to taste the sweet melody of the song I've always wanted.

To let go does not mean to stop caring, it means I can't do it for someone else.

To let go is not to cut myself off, it's the realization I can't control another.

To let go is not to enable, but allow learning from natural consequences.

To let go is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.

To let go is not to try to change or blame another, it's to make the most of myself.

To let go is not to care for, but to care about.

To let go is not to fix, but to be supportive.

To let go is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.

To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their destinies.

To let go is not to be protective, it's to permit another to face reality.

To let go is not to deny, but to accept.

To let go is not to nag, scold or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.

To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.

To let go is not to criticize or regulate anybody, but to try to become what I dream I can be.

To let go is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.

To let go is to fear less and love more

The time to love is short

merry christmas

2008-12-25T22:34:00.005+08:00

Merry Christmas!!!

our family had a Christmas party.

the planned: eat Noche buena at our Aunt's coz it was also her son's bday; have an xchange gifts and last enjoy!

ok ok ok ok ok

first was Noche Buena,

i ate the ever tradition sweet and spicy spaghetti and many sticks of bbq.

we had exchange gift worth 50 pesos for fun! but trust me, all the gifts cost double each. it is really the season of giving.

my monita is Tita Neng, she's also my godmother. so for this time, we exchange roles...

i gave her a wallet pouch, which cost a hundred plus but i got it for 27 pesos only... hahah... it was a discounted item on my mom's business... heheh

i got Aira as my "mini" Santa. she gave 5 different designed hankies...

it was really fun.

our grandfather received gifts from all of us with themed something funny.

my cousin sheila gave him "bilog", his favorite alcohol drink

my other cousins, ate nancy and rose anne gave him "pulutan" to complete the fun of bilog...

my sister and i gave him a miniture cat, for he adores cat more than us, his own grandchildren...

my grandad with bonnet and kanye west shades from jordan, kenken paul and bj

well, the party didn't last long. just right after the gifts are given, everyone just rush out leaving the place mess up with tethered gift wrappers. my cousins and i took some pictures of ourselves before we went back to our own places.

Then Tita Neng gave out her gifts to her nephews and nieces. I got two gifts from her, first one was a wallet, the same wallet she gave to others as her niece with coins and 100 bucks; the second one was the piggy bank i requested as her godchild.

When i went home, Brian, my cousin, gave me a a pouch bag as a gift from his mother, Tita Eva, for she is my godmother also.

my mom also gave away gifts. mostly are toys. each children got a set of toys. then, if you are her godchildren, you mostly got two gifts. either both toys or clothes and money or toy again!

then we slept at 2 a.m, wake up about 6:30 trying to get to the first mass of 7. but, we delayed, and delayed then we attend the last mass at 9:45 am!

at church, we were almost at the back but seated. not a good place. people behind us were so noisy! a lot of children were crying. but we still decide to finished it.

then got back home.

our cousin were waiting for us. Ate Aileen with her mom, Tita Vicenta, and her daughter, whom I loved to make it cry out loud, jaja.

My mom fed them, give them gifts and talked and talked and they decide to go home.

Tito Louie came, with his wife and two kids. but they didn't stay for so long, they still have places to go.

Rachel came in, she is my goddaughter. i gave her a pouch bag.

the actual plan of going out with my friend didn't work out. for the sake of having fun with his relatives, he got drunk, like my cousins, who drunk from the stroke of Christmas eve until the morning came.

then i just sleep. period.

end of my Christmas day.

reflections... (cont.)

2008-12-23T23:58:00.004+08:00

Ö5th night December 19, 2008Ö

I'm with Geriz. This time, we we're much earlier and seated!!!!!

it was Fr. Odong this time.
the gospel was about Mother Mary receiving and accepting the news brought to her by Angel Gabriel...
the homily, was about saying Yes! Father explained what if Mary didn't say "yes" to Angel Gabriel then there is nothing...
so we have to learn to say "yes" on good things...

Ö6th night December 20, 2008Ö

me alone... Geriz went to Enchanted Kingdom!

It was Father Jason ( Geriz went to e.k because of her classmate's invitation, thus she really wanted Fr. Jason to be the priest, she missed this time)

the gospel was about Mary went to Elizabeth to care and help her in her pregnancy and delivery to her son John...

with this the homily proceed about the good characteristics of Mary that we should learn: being approachable, dependable and the last one i forgot T.T
well, Mary, showed this characteristics when she accepted God's Grace and went to Elizabeth to care for her cousin.

being approachable, i can say I'm approachable 0.o... hehehe... the problem is that every body's impression of me is that I'm Snobbish!!! which is I'm really not, I'm just quiet...

dependable??? yes I am, for sometimes. . . You can depend on me but if I noticed that you can do it alone, I won't help you. when you abused my helping hand, don't worry I'll finish the promised but there will be no next time...

so far for being an example of Mary... T.T

Ö7th night December 21, 2008Ö

i went with my cousin, planned to meet up with Geriz on the Church 'cos she is with her suitor a.k.a ex-boyfriend. but they were late, i chose to be with my cousins 'coz they were seating. but my cousin Rachel insisted that I should go to Geriz, for the main reason, there was no much space for all of us... but i did'nt go, i did not want to stand the whole mass.

It was Fr. Peter, felt sorry for Geriz, she was standing already, yet, it was not her favorite priest.

the Gospel was the same with the Saturday's Gospel, about Mary visiting Elizabeth.

the homily is about sharing. Christmas is the season of sharing. Fr. Peter, again, compared the Christmas between Philippines and Myanmar, and Christians and Buddhists. He told us that while still in Myanmar, they share gifts to their teachers and also to the Buddhist around them.

Ö8th night December 22, 2008Ö

I'm with Geriz, i think she's doing it alternately...

It was Fr. Miguel

the Gospel was about the days of Mary with Elizabeth

the homily was about being thankful. being Filipino, he said that we are thankful to everything. We are trained to be thankful while still young. When we give something to a child, it's parent will teached the child to always say "thank you", until it is a part of the daily conversation. also being thankful has a bad outcome. best example, politicians... When elections are near, they would try to show that they help, and to those they helped, as a gratitude, they are going to vote for them eventhough they are not the suitable winners. Filipinos will always find means of showing their gratitude to those who showed help to them.

Ö9th night December 23, 2008Ö

I completed it! banzai! it was my first time to complete the Simbang Gabi!!! -_-

for the last simbang gabi, it was Fr. Jason

the gospel was about the birthday of St. John the Baptist. it narrates the story of how Elizabeth and Zachariaz waited for a long time fir their child.

the homily was about the lessons Elizabeth and Zachrias gave to us.

the lesson of the value of waiting, not hating God for being downed on whole life, and for still believing in God.

Father Jason just emphasized that the new generation doesnt know how to wait because everything we have is instant. instant noodles, instant coffee and even instant gf/bf...

my patience rating was never stable. i can wait for nowbut tommorrow i won't, even it is faster than before.

i hoped i still learned from the homily and be able to use it for every one's good.
i was so glad to complete the mass!

my reflections...

2008-12-22T22:34:00.007+08:00

The reflections I'm talking about is how we view our selves based on new lessons in life.

I remember during my highschool days, we wrote our reflection about the mass' homily of the previous Sunday mass for our Religion subject. (our school is a religious institution, see, they want to maintain the values of their students)

I don't know why? but I feel to write my reflections of my Simbang Gabi. Maybe because this might be my first time completing it (and I really hope so)

and here it is, from the first night until this 8th night! O.o (no absent! and one more ^-^)

Ö1st night December 15, 2008Ö

i'm with my cousins, reluctant to went at first, but convinced ^-^ ... the mass started at exactly 8 pm but we were late, good thing was that we did'nt miss the reading of the Good news... and we were standing!... we stand for almost an hour, we finished the mass...

the homily is about the teachings of the Christ, on how he guides the world and his people (that's how I understand the homily)

I think the Church wants to tell us to be also a guide to others, to be the others light by spreading the Good news (ofcourse what's within the Bible and not good gossip) ... Well, I've been a cathechist when i was 4th yr highschool, but now i hardly have time to attend sessions and to find schedules fitted to those public schools that we may serve. All i can do for now is to support my fellow cathechist who until now love to serve the Church...

Ö2nd night December 16, 2008Ö

I went with my old classmate Geriz whose house is just a 2 minutes away from mine. we walk, then we went early so that we can start from top and so that we have seats... but to our surprise, as early as 7:30 pm the church were already full so we ended standing again!

the homily is about the happiness Jesus is giving for the world and that is for a lifetime... the priest, Father Jason, specified that we should be happy for Jesus sacrifice for us...

Fr. Jason stated three things that we should avoid to attain happiness, and for those poeple who have it, they are not happy in their life...

1st is overspeeding: not the overspeeding on the roads (although it can cause accidents leading to unhappiness) but the overspeeding of ages... example are those kids who wants to grow older as fast as possible, they don't experience the happiness of being a careless kid. thus when they grow older they wish to be younger. i don't really wish to grow old... i'm still child, i love cartoons and still love toys... heheh

2nd is idleness: those poeple who does nothing but to sleep, coz when thet wake-up they feel sleepy again, so they don't do anything just nothing! and I admit that I'm this 2nd type T.T...

3rd is wrong priority in life: good example is that work over family, and you will wonder why your children or partner is not close to you... i don't feel this in my family even though my father work overseas... I understand my father, instead I'm the one who feels guilty that because of us he have to work abroad alone. T.T

Ö3rd night December 17, 2008Ö

on the third night... well, i don't understand the homily that much... you see, the priest that night is Fr. Peter, it's my first mass with him. he's from Myanmar, he doesn't speak well in Tagalog and even his English is slow... the mass proceed in Tagalog, and English on some parts...

the reading of the Gospel was in English, and it's about the bloodline of Jesus from Abraham...

the homily, well, i only understand that Fr. Peter was amazed that we have this tradition 'coz in his country there is no such thing... He just compared the Celebration of Christmas in the Philippines and Myanmar...

my mind was mostly on cloud nine, I don't understand him much...

Ö4th night December 18, 2008Ö

the 4th night. still no absent! happy! hahah

I went with my cousins, Geriz was shopping!

and it's Fr. Miguel, the new director of my highschool. it was also my first mass with him. I heard alot of him, my cousins told me that he was a some sort of notorious priest-director.

the Gospel this tym was about St. Joseph learned that Mary was pregnant....

the main reflection was about being straight. St. Joseph is an example of a man whose character is "straight", I mean, he's not the one who will take a flight on a problem... most of us, if we had a choice to escaped the problem, we escaped. I'm not much of this person, because I can't settle my own conflict with my aunt her children. if i'm straight then i should apologized and also to forgive them, but, instead of it.. i run away from them, I would rather take a longer path just not to face them...

failed again...

I'll continue my reflections on the next blog... ^-^

misa de gallo

2008-12-22T05:17:00.003+08:00

Once again, for a long long time, I blog! haha... -_-

Philippines have the longest Christmas in the whole wide web! It actually starts with Misa de Gallo or Simbang Gabi mass at December 15 for night and December 16 for dawn and ends with Epiphany or the Feast of Three Kings at January 11.

Misa de Gallo consist of 9 nights of mass it is for the 9 months that Mother Mary bear Jesus in her womb. Its not actually at night. Because Misa de Gallo literally means roosters mass or mass at dawn. History says that the mass starts when the rooster starts it morning job before town people go to their work. It changed into night during the reign of Pres. Marcos, when he declared Marshall law and set a country wide curfew. At the end of his reign some church held the mass at dawn still having the night.

They said that if one completed the mass then one can wish at the end of the last night.

And I never able to complete it! I hope this time I'm able to complete the mass because when I started college, I seldomly attend the regular mass every Sunday...

Cnsider me as a sinner now T.T

--- hark the herald ---

Hark! The herald angels sing,

“Glory to the newborn King;

Peace on earth, and mercy mild,

God and sinners reconciled!”

Joyful, all ye nations rise,

Join the triumph of the skies;

With th’angelic host proclaim,

“Christ is born in Bethlehem!”

Refrain
Hark! the herald angels sing,

“Glory to the newborn King!”

Christ, by highest Heav’n adored;

Christ the everlasting Lord;

Late in time, behold Him come,

Offspring of a virgin’s womb.

Veiled in flesh the Godhead see;

Hail th’incarnate Deity,

Pleased with us in flesh to dwell,

Jesus our Emmanuel.

Refrain

Hail the heav’nly Prince of Peace!

Hail the Sun of Righteousness!

Light and life to all He brings,

Ris’n with healing in His wings.

Mild He lays His glory by,

Born that man no more may die.

Born to raise the sons of earth,

Born to give them second birth.

Refrain

Come, Desire of nations, come,

Fix in us Thy humble home;

Rise, the woman’s conqu’ring Seed,

Bruise in us the serpent’s head.

Now display Thy saving power,

Ruined nature now restore;

Now in mystic union join

Thine to ours, and ours to Thine.

Refrain

Adam’s likeness, Lord, efface,

Stamp Thine image in its place:

Second Adam from above,

Reinstate us in Thy love.

Let us Thee, though lost, regain,

Thee, the Life, the inner man:

O, to all Thyself impart,

Formed in each believing heart.

Refrain

vacation ends! new sem!

2008-11-10T00:42:00.002+08:00

the vacation finally ended.

it was a boring though

all i have to do was eat-sleep-eat-sleep

the only activity was the all saints' day and all souls day or in other country it was hallween

we all gathered at the cementery to visit loved ones that already passed away. it was a very hot day. nothing special really...

the next week i enrolled the new sem. which is much lighter than the previous one.

i was also absent in its first week, its just an orientation week, there is still no lessons on first week.

sem break!: a flash back...

2008-10-23T14:56:00.008+08:00

finally a semester's break so happy hardships 4 dis sem are ol my done!!!!!

the newly ended sem was so haggard and hectic.

i had new faculty, 1st in my life to have a very strict proffesors.

the simple anatomy at glance became the worst experience of my life, i mean, we disected a cadaver (human corpse), that caused me of sleepless night! almost all of the pillows in our house were in my bed to occupied the free space (so scared to think that i'm with someone creeepy!). the cadaver came in at the end of the 1st term, were the lessons are about head and neck. good thing of its being late is that we didn't disect the head part which scared us most. we started from skinning the body up to seperating the muscles. there were rumors that the cadaver's soul was roaming the campus it was witnessed by those self-proclaimed "third-eyes" of freaky students.

the most simple course subject and the only minor in this sem was the human growth and development. it was almost the same as those psychology, sociology and anthropolopy, society with family planning course subjects before. it just that it was more focus in every stage of life span from prenatal to old age. the teacher here is fine.

physiology. it is said to be the hardest but it came in second to me. there was nothing much happened, it was a normal class. the time was great so sa the teacher. its just that we focus on how the muscles contract. it also took me a midterm exam to realize what subject are for.

the most freaking subject! the pt1 and Pt 2 with its professor! other professor said that it is easy and fun but for us it is the most difficult and sufferings. Know why? it was because of the feeling-know-it-all-boastful-"kitid-utak" professor of ours. he surely knows how to terrorized students for nothing. well, the only fun part was the pool therapy lessons. i did enjoy the pool! i also hate the straight 6 hour class when he tried for the make up of lost lessons.

the fun class was psychiatry! we enjoy learning the different psychotic disorders and how to handle them. all we did was reporting and acting out the scenes of curing it. the professor was great. too bad that the school administration didn’t handled her properly.

the school foundation day was held

i became a member of the school journal

the college of physical therapy also had its first dinner meeting

well, this sem was a really tough one and there will be more hardships on the upcoming other sem.

chillos got to go!

another ouch! a cold war, a competition you didn't know

2008-07-03T23:46:00.002+08:00

It is so hard being the inferior of your class, specially when you are only two.

This issue has been bugging me since last week or might be ever since the school year open. I know that I'm not that smart compared to the scholar of the school,I can also be one of the top students if the number increase. This time I'm the biggest dumb-dumb of the class for two. My only classmate is only my friend and we know each other very well (that's what i think). She is a straight Dean's Lister, and a scholar of almost four institution in the country. I'm not competing with her in terms of grades 'coz i know my limit, but teacher's wanted a competition between us. in which i obviously already lost to.

I don't understand my professor very well (not in academics), when I'm able to get a higher score than my classmate, the way he always reacts is that i won a presidency election against to the best in the country by cheating! i always feel that i don't deserve what I've worked so hard for. Then I gave him the lowest score of my entire career as a student, 15/100, then the way he criticized me was the way how a bratty girl looked to a pauper. I won it 'coz i wasn't able to study 'coz my stupid-freaking classmate told me that there would no exam, that i don't have to review because she also didn't. then i trusted her to my ticket of doom... what's that for? i could just ask my self... i thought she didn't want to compete and i remembered very clear that she said she don't want to compete with anybody for many reasons like she would have pressure to bear. Does anybody includes me or not? I think i have the pressure to in the same class with her.

So far, my feelings enlightened, i have my friends who sympathises with me.

but,I swear, this would be the start of the competition she said she didn't wanted. I'm giving her and my professor my all for my best and not theirs! I might won't able to win in terms of grades, i'll show them what a good student to what a normal teenager does!

say no to dr. ______!!!

2008-06-30T23:15:00.002+08:00

last Saturday, my schedule was 8-12 for anatomy lecture and 1-7 pm for anatomy laboratory with two different professors. our class started on time with our anatomy lec. professor. while in the middle of our class, our anatomy lab. professor barged in, stopping our lesson. telling to our professor that they're on boycott and that to announce to our other subject teachers. wondering why, we asked what was going on... he answered that the newly arrived president-owner of the school and the hospital where they really work as a physical therapy questioned their credibility to teach in our school. hurt, our laboratory teacher decided on that very same day to resign as our teacher! then we lost another meeting for that day... then monday came, today at school rumors became so alarmingly, that the president-owner of the school and hospital will going to handle our anatomy class!!!!! as in what??! that very strict and arrogant doctor will hold our both anatomy class? oh my! our laboratory is going to be dealing with a cadaver! i told to my classmates that if that stupid rumor is true, then i'm going to be afraid of the doctor that the cadaver!!! then my another classmate said that he will going to stop or transfer to another school or to shift course immediately if that doctor will replace one of our favorite teacher!

Emo Means Gay?!

2008-06-27T02:59:00.008+08:00

I know it's kinda late talking about "EMO" because many tv shows have discussed it already and also in many forums I've visited, but let me tell a story why this came up to my mind.

my classmate styles like an emo
one of my favorite bands are said to be emo
my handsome, very smart, and very talented classmate's style is emo (even on his t-shirt have a shout out that he is emo) and is confirmed emo! (heartbroken T.T)

The third on the list is the thing I still don't want to believe. Why? because in one friendster forum, the question is "what is the meaning of emo for you?". The most answer is simply "Emo is Gay!". I didn't believe in those opinions but I also did'nt try to contradict on it, because for me Emo is just a mere fashion statement. A statement that blooms today and die tomorrow. Although its been a long time since it bloomed, it is still on the "in".

Let me share this, a story of my friends biggest frustration about emo.

The 3rd on the list was the reason. The day before yesterday, my friend "April" and I had a conversation about him, "Jay Vic", here's the conversation:

april: is he a gay?
me: hell no! he is not gay, look at him, the way he dress seemed not and also the way he speaks, he is so manly.

april: is it?

me: why?

april: i saw him kissing with other guy in his friendster pictures!

me: ne? really? where
april: lips!

me: as in lips to lips with other guy?! ows?

april: check it on your on! he's my friend on my friendster
me: ok, i'll check it when i get home, but his not my friend on friendster, his profile's might be locked. I'll borrow yours.

Then I went home immediately because something inside me made me excited. I opened the friendster then his profile with a different name. There it was! The evidence! He is a true emo and a true gay! A big Ouch! He is one of my most respected senpai. I look after him because he is a good model for a student coming from a private-catholic school. Right now, I'm still shocked and I don't know what to do. I have to release it from me. So, I told it to my cousin and asked to kept it as a secret. Now, I've post it here. I really don't know what to do. I'm sure J.V is keeping this matter a secret to the whole school.

But I don't know what to do when we see each other and talk to each other, and he's acting like a straight guy in front of everyone when I know his true blood. T.T .... but I still feel a respect towards him. Just what like I said before it is just a mere fashion statement somehow... I'm still proud of him, he is a good person and he is proud enough to post it on his friendster account (although it is only a few number of schoolmate on his friend's list)...

Be proud of who you are, it is the least you can do for your self....

we need time out

2008-06-26T18:56:00.003+08:00

here's the thing...

my classmate-friend and i are the only students in our major class. actually, we are different to one another. she is so dedicated in her studies while i only study when i have to. her type is the one you cannot always have a joke on. i think she is more a loner type of a person or "the nerd".
in our first day in class in our major, the professor explained to us what is the relevance of our subject in our chosen course, and its relevance in real life and also the history of our future career. surely, i learned a lot, i even ask some things that were not really cleared but my classmate asked the Prof a question that didn't even needed to ask because in the prof's explanation even a kindergarten can easily understand! then the Prof gave us a break. i told her that I'm going to eat, she accompanied me, she was also going to have recess. normally, classmates going out to canteen will talk about their crushes or what happened to them the previous night but we were talking about the lesson and explanation of the professor. she was talking like she was so excited, or what we called a child coming home telling her mama that the teacher gave her golden star! "PLEASE! i heard enough from the Prof you don't have to repeat it to me!" i've wanted to answer back but i held my temper. good thing the break was over. i felt like i was a wrong company for her or she as wrong company for me.
it is not wrong to be serious but please have a break. i'm having a wrong impression of my self that when i'm with her i didn't do my best in studying... i'm so stupid.

life is short, have fun while you can! it is not wrong not to be serious sometimes...

living like. . .

2008-06-12T00:02:00.004+08:00

Have you ever wonder why you always ask ''why...?''? Then it will be followed by ''how come...?'' , but have you tried to answer it on your own?

If your answer is yes... then we're on the same boat.

The truth is that those people who often ask why and how come are the people who have low self -esteem, for those people don't know how to trust themselves . A certain event will happen first before the person can ask why. In this event, they were already failures, because they don't have confidence from the beginning. Then they will start to ask questions to others, then to themselves. The worst is there would be no answer that can satisfy them, to the extent blame someone and not themselves.

This character of low self-esteem could make you feel living in vain, insanity, lunatic, crazy and all its synonyms. And it is so hard to defeat it. It took me years before I won over it. It affects school and job and even personal life. I say, when the moment you realise you have low self-esteem, you should immediately find ways to overcome it. For it becomes worst and worst every time you tolerate it.

I'm going to share a chant, it is not really a chant it is just a phrase you need to shout out loud or just in your mind. it boost up my confidence and i hope it will also be useful to you all.

your name P O W E R!!! E N T E R!!!

ex. YAMAKI POWER! ENTER!

Nope! it's not my own. I learned it in a japanese drama series "Nobuta Wo Produce" in english is "producing nobuta". One of many values in this show is looking for confidence and trust for your self.

It is also true that to have strong or i say too much confidence can also be meant being boastful, or be in the dangerous position. So, it is just to have a right mix of confidence.

"trust yourself. think for yourself. act for yourself. speak for your self. be yourself"