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moving forward and forward --->

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived

I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside

Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing

And why can't I let it go

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MONDAY

..... ! actually noticed that ! woke up late in the morning even though ! slept early the night before. it took me ages to noticed that neighborhood is quite. then a thought struck me! it was June 1st! the kids who always so noisy and so bothersome are back to school! vacation, the time of their life ended! woohuh! =.= . . . . father called, telling me to go to school and get enrolled. but the thing is, i haven't prepared any of the requirements... o.0

..... anyways, i met up with Geriz that afternoon and went to gym. the attendance were only quarter of the regular number. so, doc. abe decided to cancel taebo session thus we just go work out only. well, i didn't work out, geriz only, i'm not in the mood to work out. then one of the gym's client begged doc. abe to have taebo session coz' she's kinda desperate to lose weight and decrease her body size because she's GETTING MARRIED! good for her! =.= .... with that, we had taebo for only 30 mins.

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TUESDAY

..... a nice pleasant dream then suddenly my mom woke me up so early! but ! continue sleeping, ignored the wake up call. proceed back to my dream, then minutes after, mom woke me up again! waking me up by someone that i know for myself i don't have to is making me upset and bad mood! then she explained her self that we must go to school and get enrolled. but i think we'll gonna be late and requirements were still not prepared.

..... afternoon came, i went to tanauan to buy all the requirements needed, and a picture taken for the required 2x2 pic. i accidentally bump with my 1st yr. h.s English teacher, ms. carandang, though i was too shy to talk to her... xD

..... went home, i waited for geriz's text message, saying we won't go gym for the rain was so hard and probably their was a flood on the way.

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WEDNESDAY

..... Woke up so early, i really have to get my self enrolled or else I'm dead meat! T.T .... With my mom, we went to UNIVERSITY OF PERPETUAL HELP in Biñan. We left Sto. Tomas raining, reached Calamba with cloudy skies and few drizzles. We ate breakfast in Jollibee, because it's gonna be a long day for us. And true enough, we reached Biñan with a super shinning sun!! like literally! i wore a jacket believing it will also be raining hard there. though it rain when we were bout to go home.

..... it was a matter of time we did realize that we have a lot of paper to be xerox copied. from the admission to the xerox center outside campus which was about 5 minutes walk mom and i walk back and forth for about 3 times! and for the fourth time, mom do it alone =.=

..... when all the papers were ready, the staff took me to the Dean's office for my subjects. i wasn't able to get all the desired subject i knew i will be able to from my evaluation day because the person that day was different, and they weren't able to look at other college course with the same subject course. talking about luck huh?!

..... we were lead to 4th floor for the payment, and luckily my mom were able to keep up. Last time she went there, she were easily tired and short for breath. there were 7-8 steps or counter we had to fall in. on the second to last counter were the Student Body, they ask for student council fee, and asked us to returned to them after the last counter, and so we did. they checked for the validation of my enrollment and placed a S.B stamp on my registration form and greeted us "WELCOME TO PERPETUAL". well, they actually greeted my mom and not me! T.T

..... we were asked to proceed to the Guidance Office which were on their lunch break. so, we went outside and looked for a possible boarding house. we saw one, which is just outside the school, we checked it out, it was good, but not enough for me. the room were long, able to have 7 occupants, but i found the room not well ventilated even though i will bring my own fan, the room will still be looking hot because there were only one window! and for the day light it's still look dark inside. We went to 7/11 because it is also just in front of the school, we had drinks. we still haven't eaten lunch, because i told her we would rather eat after the whole enrollment thing.

..... thinking that the office of the Guidance is back in operating hours, we proceed there. they had me answer questions which just like the tagged and survey question i answered here. i think my answers were quite disturbing... =.= i felt quite exhausted already, so i answered lazily... xD

..... after that, i'm now official Perp's student! yey me!

..... we continue looking for boarding house, and we found two. the first one were already full so she recommend the one beside her. the second one were still have vacancies, but the bed available were the upper part of double deck-er. we have it reserve for me. we took it, the place were good enough,

• walking distance from school,


• the way there were a lot of houses and business stalls so it won't be scary to pass there at night,


• the room were well ventilated although i think i still have to bring my own fan (i don't trust the ceiling fan will reach me enough),


• there is a place outside where we could have laundry


• the bathroom is inside the room


• we have own kitchen sink inside


• it's cheap! for only a thousand a month. 800 for the rent, electricity will be parted among us boarders, the water is free and i don't think that i would pay whole 200 on my part for electricity.

..... after that we decided to head off. we left at around 2 pm... for the big surprised of the day, TRAFFIC! it took us nearly 4 hours in the traffic! and the source was, this humongous "acacia" tree blocked the road. i think it was due to the heavy rain, that the soil eroded and let loose on the tree.

..... we reached Calamba. we ate lunch/dinner. or it was dinner alone and we completely skipped lunch. we stretched our legs by having stroll on the mall. and honestly, i really feel so tired that time. that on the road home, i fell asleep straight from Calamba up to Sto. Tomas! reached home, went to sleep as fast as i could.

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THURSDAY

..... tired from enrolling, woke up late in the afternoon! text Geriz that i can't go gym 'coz i still feel exhausted.

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FRIDAY

..... stayed home. it was raining hard outside the whole day. at night, i gave geriza my liquid eyeliner that i'm not using, we didn't go to the gym knowing that it might be our last day there. we won't risk walking on floody Tanauan!

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SATURDAY

..... mom was preparing my things that i will be bringing in my boarding house. she's the only one preparing and gathering my things, i don't think i should prepare it yet, even though school will start this coming monday. in fact i still don't want to go to school on Monday. i'm not prepared mentally! o.O hahah

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it's raining really heavy this days...

due to climate change T.T

we have heavy low pressure area

around the Philippines corner....

tawa k nmn

When you walked through the door

It was clear to me (clear to me)

You’re the one they adore, who they came to see (who they came to see)

You’re a … rock star (baby)

Everybody wants you (everybody wants you)

Player… Who could really blame you (who could really blame you)

We're the ones who made you

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gloomy day... i say...

oh well,

my Kuya Erap always sending me e-mails...

some are imformative,

like health and medicine;

some are news currently circling Saudi Arabia and Philippines;

and just recently,

a joke!

i really laugh on those!

here they are...

hope you'll laugh too! -.-

Misis : Darling, ano ang tawag sa isang asawa na sexy, maganda, hindi selosa,mapagmahal, .............masipag, mapagkalinga, masarap magluto?
Mister: Guni-guni!

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TANONG: Paano mo sasabihin sa isang babae na mataba siya nang hindi siyamababastos?
SAGOT: 'Uhm, excuse me, miss...Mang Tomas ba ang lotion mo?'

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Aanhin ko ang napakalaking bahay, mamahaling sasakyan, milyun-milyongkayamanan, at masasarap na pagkain kung ang kapit-bahay ko ang may-ari ng mgaiyun?!

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Nanay: Ano 'tong malaking zero sa test paper mo?
Anak : Hindi po 'yan zero, 'Nay. Naubusan lang ng star ang teacher kokaya binigyan niya ako ng moon! Moon lang 'yan, 'Nay, promise!

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Mga sikat na salawikain:
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Better late than pregnant.
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Kapag may tiyaga, good luck!
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Aanhin pa ang damo...kabayo ba ako?
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Do unto others, then, run! Run! Run!
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Ang hindi magmahal sa sariling wika ay lumaki sa ibang bansa.
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Ang lalaking nagigipit, sa bakla kumakapit.

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Guro: Sino si Jose Rizal?
Juan: Di ko po kilala.
Guro: Ikaw Pepe?
Pepe: Di ko rin po kilala..
Guro: Di nyo kilala si Jose Rizal?
Pedro: Ma'm, baka po sa kabilang section sya!

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Paano humamon ng AWAY ang ...
BULAG?
Magpakita kayo mga Duwag!
DULING?
Isa Isa Lang! para patas ang Laban!
PILAY?
Patay kung Patay! Walang Takbuhan!

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Husband: Kung di ako makaligtas sa operasyon ko bukas, ikaw na sana angbahalasa lahat-lahat. .. I LOVE YOU!
Wife: Tumigil ka! wala pang namamatay sa TULI!

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Pedro: Pare balita ko bading ka daw. totoo ba?!
Ambo: Pare, Mga chismax lang 'yun galing sa mga chuvanes na walang magawasa mga chenilyn nila.... chura nila! hmpf!

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Boy: Di na tuloy ang kasal natin
Girl: Bakit?!
Boy: Kuya mo kasi eh!
Girl: Hindi no! Gusto ka ng Kuya ko!
Boy: Yun nga eh...gusto ko rin ang kuya mo!

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Juan: San ka galing?
Pedro: Sementeryo, libing ng byenan ko.
Juan: E bakit puro kamot ang mukha at braso mo?
Pedro: Mahirap ilibing eh... Lumalaban!!

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BALIW (tumawag sa mental hospital): Hello... may tao po ba sa Room 168?Telephone
Operator: Wala po, bakit?
Baliw: Check ko lang kung nakatakas talaga ako!

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Misis: lolokohin ko mister ko, magpapanggap ako na prosti dito sa kanto.
Timing (dumaan ang mister nya....)
Misis: Pogi! available ako ngayon, pwede ka ba?
Mister: Yoko sayo...kamukha mo misis ko!

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American guy named Paul challenged a Filipino:
American: Use my name 4 times in a sentence!
Pedro: Paul, be carePaul, you might Paul in the swimmingPaul.

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Biyaya na makukuha sa Gulay:
AMPALAYA - pampapula ng dugo
KALABASA - pampalinaw ng mata
TALONG - pampatirik ng mata
MANI - pampatirik ng TALONG.
Ay! nalito na ako.

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Quote for the Day...
Ang Buhay ay parang bato...it's Hard.

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Kapag may kaaway ka, tandaan mo....dito lang ako... dito lang talagaako...tapos dyan ka lang, wag kang pupunta dito! Baka madamay ako.

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Prospective Employer to Applicant: ' So why did you leave your previousjob?'
Applicant: ' The company relocated and they did not tell me where!'

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Juan: Birthday ng asawa ko...
Pedro: Ano regalo mo?
Juan: Tinanong ko kung ano gusto niya.
Pedro: Ano naman sinabi?Juan: Kahit ano basta may DIAMOND.
Pedro: Ano binigay mo?
Juan: Baraha.

3 turns must be enough

just a wrapped-up on what happened in my may:

on the first two weeks of may;

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gym, sleep, inet, sleep, gym, sleep, inet,

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inet was now boring for me,

but i still can't help myself not to turn it on =.= (adik!).

it's like a drug to me... 0.o

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so ! ended up watching jon and kate plus 8 on line.

present episodes on t.v can't seemed to satisfy me...

i looked for past episodes and future ones,

'coz present telecast here in the Philippines are seemed delayed..

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actually, it can now be paired with my favorite team...

BrGy. GiNebRa G!n KinGs!

before, no other show can make my itchy fingers to change the channel

but now, J&K+8 seemed to make my fingers really itchy...

they now share time with my fav team.

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the 2nd wk seemed to be twisted...

1. Ginebra won the second slot automatic semis position =.=
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   to my horror. INTERNET CONNECTION DISCONNECTED!, their office were moved, so technically we did'nt know where to pay.. does'nt matter because
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   Sheila still got her connection, so we much on line drama for 5 straight nights!

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3rd week! "Shit happens"

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mother had finally paid the bill on the nearest office

which is just a hundred kilometers away! 0.0
then we waited probably about more than a week for the reconnection

the operator said "followed-up has been made to the main office"
for almost two weeks!

by the way,

i secretly joined PCSO (lotto, i mean for real)

now that i'm already of age,
can't seem to resist the huge sum of grabd prize! woohuhuh =.=

did't win though...

my first losing ticket T.T

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3rd week to 4th

gym continues...

i don't even think that i lose weight,

my best friends can't answer why though...

where did you hear V-cut talked, nor chocolates and sodas can speak???

on the upper side,

my mom got the papers i needed for transferring

but first,

the registrar gave the wrong papers...

they gave her kevin's

so she waited long enough for the registrar to produce mine.

could you imagine kevin's face on mine??

my possible schedule, tentative only,

got from the day i went for the evaluation...

ssuurrbbeeii..♣♠♦♣

once again,

I'm sunk into darkness

that for others,

it may seem nonsense or waste of time

but for me,

it's is just one of my sanctuary....

1. Musta bakasyon mo?

- ayos lng, wlang pinagkaiba s normal n araw...

2. Palagi ka bang umaalis?

- hindi ..

3. Masaya ka naman ba?

- stoned!

4. Bakit?

- eh s aun eh...

6. Kailan pasukan ninyo?

- sa june 15 dw..

7. Sa tingin mo, bakit kailangan mag-aral?

- para matuwa ang magulang, sila nmn ang my gusto at pera nmn nila...

8. E bakit kailangan ng tubig?

- for drinking: para hnd aq madehydrate at hnd aq ngsbi s mama q ng "mama hiney hurts... T.T"

for other purposes: para my pampaligo!

9. Anong gusto mo? Sports, Music o Acting?

- sports and music.

10. Makulit ka ba?

- minsan lang, pag nag-isip bata n nmn aq...

11. Maingay ka ba?

- nope.

12. May kaaway ka ba?

- hmmmmppp.. UO

13. Meron bang special sa araw na ito?

- relieved from hiney hurts!!

14. Musta naman love life mo?

- ZzeroO

15. Sino naman bf/gf mo?

- zero-kun, kung kilala mo 'yon..

16. May nagalit na ba sa iyo dahil sa isang tao lang?

- oo.

17. Saan ka nag-aaral?

- exiting DMMC- Institute of Health Sciences, entering **** (still confidential)

18. Musta naman doon?

- ewan q... physically absent

19. Kaya mo pa ba mag-aral?

- oo...

20. Musta mga grades mo?

- aus lng, naipang-aasar p s mga gahaman s grades =.=

21. May bagsak ka ba?

- WALA! =.=

22. Saan ka kumakain sa school mo?

- sa cafeteria..

23. Sino kasama mo?

- friends/classmates

24. Bakit?

- gutom din sila

25. Anong subject ka natulog?

- college, wla; nung highschool, lahat ng math sesion q nakakatulog aq...

26. Nagcutting ka na ba?

- oo for a good reason; oo pag sobrang bored aq s klase...

27. Lagi ka ba late pumasok?

- hehehe.. YES!

28. Sumayaw ka na ba sa school mo?

- oo

29. Bakit ka sumayaw?

- para may grade...

30. E kanta?

- nope

31. Ang init no?

- malamig ngaun. umulan ngaun eh..

32. Mahilig ka ba manood ng dvd?

- oo..

33. E text?

- nope.

34. Internet?

- super.

35. Mahilig ka bang gumimik?

- hnd..

36. bored ka ba ngeun?

- yup

37. anu paborito mong kanta

- more to life by stacie orrico

38.anu kanta ngeun?

- the climb by miley cyrus

39. Si vic sotto ay..

- may show n s channel 5

40. Si ely ng eraserheads ay..

- sa pupil n.

41. Gusto kong lumipad..

- at matulog s ulap.

42. Gusto kong pumunta sa..

- Greece

43. Gusto kong kumain ng..

- spicy yumpanada.. yumyum =.=

44. Gusto kong maging..

- invisible.

45. Gusto ko sanang..

- makatapos na ng pag aaral.

46. Palagi na lang..

- mainit.

47. Meron din akong..

- asperger's syndrome

48. It's not..

- contagious

49. Pagod na kong..

- magalit.

50. Habulin mo..

- happiness mo! happiness!

51. Last, anong masasabi mo sa survey?

- palipas oras ..

Gone A.W.O.L

ATTENTION!

BLOG WORLD

your girl here is on BLOG leave!

(is there anything like that??)

as you noticed, there is no recent updates on this blog.

the last posts were songs that help me reflect during the holy week...

yes, the holy week. or more precisely, i actually stop blogging since vacation starts...

i'm not stressed nor in the mood to blog about anything.

and I haven't gone anywhere. every night till the break of dawn i'm infront of my computer...

just to keep up,

here is my daily routine. (exaclty! routine on vacation days)

everynight (sometimes in day) of every week: in front of computer, into inet surfing, intruding other blogs, killing boredom by watching on-line asian dramas, chatting

monday.tuesday,thursday,friday (either 7:30 am or 6:30 pm) : go to the fitness gym, i generally do taebo,

other days or other time: i am fixing my self and all that jazz to transfer school!

yes baby, I'm transferring AGAIN! wooh hoo! (i should have blog about this thingy!)

SLEEPING is my hobby! TOO LAZY BUMBUM!

=.=

i tried to join the AKO MISMO advocacy campaign,

i first heard it on GAME KNB

when its host edu manzano plugged about it,

right now i'm still waiting for the confirmation e-mail.

sweet and serene....

holy week...

april 5-12, 2009

or Lenten season...

a week devoted by Roman Catholic for the salvation of mankind by its Savior....

• its color is violet, signifies the Lent by the Church
• time of prayers and reflections
• a time for oneself to Him

it is the time of the year that a part of me is very lonely, though i do not have any reasons to...

it is the time of the year that i always feel a mistake in me... a wrongly things done but not committed...

it is a time of the year when i feel there will always be hope of light for tommorrow, even i have nothing to look forward to...

it is a time of the year that i always feel i don't have any rights to smile even when i have to...

it is the time of the year that i always feel that people around me are fools in their own way for celebrating it...

it is the time of the year that i always question my self, "why am i being so fool not to feel this but i always think of this???"

it is the time of the year that i feel that i am nothing compared to Him

it is the time of the year that i can't joke about but i don't know why? but still, i did once...

• it's not violet, it's red for blood, for suffering
• time of confusion, i never prayed or reflect on things but i always have a feeling that i am talking to Him always, that i know what i did wrong and right...
• time of crying to Him, i really don't know why, but i am sad...

Palm Sunday

well, i didn't attend mass, but my mom did. she went solo. she actually attended the 6 a.m mass. way too early for me. she did wake me up but not ot join her but to transfer bed to accompany my 18 months old cousin that is staying with us this summer.

around 7 a.m, mom was not yet home, but Allen woke up already... (i'm sensing trouble OK?)

Allen(in babyish way of talking).Cyrle

Good morning! =.=

Tita?? (face about to cry!)

Not here...

Silent

Lis jan! (go away)

nope!

dun k labas! (there! outside)

Carry him outside ><

then mom came...

quiet day...

Holy Monday

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Holy Tuesday

Grandma came to fetch up Allen so he can stay with his parents the rest of the holy week. Sarah ended up going with them.

Holy Wednesday

movie marathon with mom, watch harry potter movies from 1 - 5! for real!!! then evening came, i tend to watch the pirates of the carribean. finished the first installment but cut short the second one.

Maundy Thursday

continued the movie marathon. watched the rest of the 2nd pirate movie then move on with the third... mom went to Kuya jessie to borrow more movies. next in lines were the negotiator, men in black, men in black ii. we actually didn't care that those movies were old and watched them over a hundred times already...

and guess what???

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i saw a shooting star around 6:30

Good Friday

woke up late. ate late breakfast... mom and aunts were outside chatting... i ended up getting their blood pressure... ate yums, mom cooked coco jam to bribed me so that no lunch!!!! moms... evening came, we ate dinner at the hut together with aunts and cousins...

Black Saturday

i actually slept whole day....

Easter Sunday

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the warrior is a child

Lately I've been winning battles left and right
But even winners can get wounded in the fight
People say that I'm amazing, strong beyond my years
But they don't see inside of me, I'm hiding all the tears

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and cry for just a while
Deep inside this armour - the warrior is a child.

Unafraid because His armour is the best
But even soldiers need a quiet place to rest.
People say that I'm amazing - never face retreat
But they don't see the enemies that lay me at His feet.

They don't know that I go running home when I fall down
They don't know who picks me up when no one is around
I drop my sword and look up for a smile
'Cause deep inside this armour...

Deep inside this armour...
Deep inside this armour...
The warrior is a child.

tell the world of His love

For God so loved the world

He gave us His only Son

Jesus Christ our Savior

His most precious one

He has sent us His message of love

And sends those who hear

To bring the message to everyone

In a voice loud and clear

Let us tell the world of His love

The greatest love the world has known

Search the world for those who have walked

Astray and lead them home

Fill the world's darkest corners

With His light from up above

Walk every step, Every mile, Every road

And tell the world,

Tell the world of His love

(Tell the world of His love)

(Tell the world of His love)

Our Lord our savior our king

Emmanuelle prince of peace

Begotten of the Father's love

Born to set us free

Let heaven and earth sing His phrases

His righteousness proclaim

Let every heart rejoice in His love

And magnify His name

Let us tell the world of His love

The greatest love the world has known

Search the world for those who have walked

Astray and lead them home

Fill the world's darkest corners

With His light from up above

Walk every step, Every mile, Every road

And tell the world,

Tell the world of His love

(Tell the world of His love)

Let us tell the world of His love

The greatest love the world has known

Search the world for those who have walked

Astray and lead them home

Fill the world's darkest corners

With His light from up above

Walk every step, Every mile, Every road And tell the world,

Tell the world of His love

(Tell the world of His love)

Tell the world of His love

heal our land

If my people will humble themselves

Humble themselves and pray

If they seek my face and humble themselves

And turn from their wicked ways

REFRAIN 1

I will hear from heaven and forgive their sins

I will hear from heaven and heal their land

CHORUS

Lord, heal our land

Father, heal our land

Hear our cry and turn our nation back to You

Lord, heal our land

Hear us oh, Lord, and heal our land

Forgive our sin and heal our broken land

Lord, we vow our knee, we humble ourselves

Humble ourselves and pray

Lord, we seek your face and humble ourselves

And turn from my wicked ways

REFRAIN 2

Father in Your mercy, forgive our sins

Father in Your mercy, come heal our land

[Repeat CHORUS twice]

CODA (Lord, heal our land Father, heal our land)

Hear our cry and heal our broken land